Ramadhan's Galore

Alhamdulillah, 11 sekawan managed to meet up for iftar with all the hubbies (w/o Hid's presence though *nun jauh di sana*) Usually, for tarawih, the girls would be the Imamah. This year, for the first time, we had the gentlemen to lead us! Of course, credit goes to the host of the iftar Nan & Zan!

I am very happy. Why? Albeit the different status for half of us, we still find time to get together. Best,eh? And I am personally happy because I've never celebrated my birthday being with the 11, but me & nul managed to celebrate our silver jubilee moments together. It's more of a personal treat for me to Nul, due to our iftar date that happened to fall on September.

11 sekawan (Hid, let me do the magic for you okay...) & 5 Hubbies
Specialised brownies (with our names & hubbies) & mango cake

I had to dash to grandma's place. It's been quite some time since my family members had tarawih together. I remembered the times when atuk was still healthy, he'd be our imam. That's years back. So this is one of the ways to get spiritually united for us. Moreover, it's my dearest Sept cousins birthday too (Have quite a no. of September cousins, both paternal and maternal )

Happy birthday dearies!
(Some of the other Sept babies were absent)

After family affair, I was happy as to meet my sisters I've not met for quite some time. Although there was a minute attendance (This time round the brothers won us by their numbers), I forged new friendships with a few. I just had trouble sleeping (which I am having till now) so that's why I could easily wake up for qiyam. Thinking of qiyam reminds me of a dear sister whom I can't spend the wee nights with her this year. She just continued her studies in Azhar and I am missing those times we planned for qiyam last year. I wish you are here so I can spend more fruitful wee hours with you *melancholic*

Had group discussion straight after qiyam. To savour my bliss, and I guess it's my rezeki, I had the chance to capture the shots of the Infrared Photography @ N.L.B straight after discussion on its last day. More or less, the technique was quite similar to me. I've tried applying the same techniques to my shots, only that I was oblivious of its term back then. Actually, I have planned to visit the exhibition that day, but since I had my discussion there, it's killing two birds.

The muggin' life has not ended...

Thinking of the all the 4 assignments + presentations at one go. Some of them which are...

• Ummah Concept - Positive Value
• Islamic Aqidah - Challenges & Responses (Internal : Rejection & Extremism)
• Adat Perpatih

I guess, when it's Ramadhan, it's time to seek more knowledge than usual, huh?

I'm tired, but it's the blessed month after all... =D

TwentyFive

Clock striked at 9.53am. Parents returned home and surprised me with a Light Cheesecake, the simplest I could be happy of. Actually, I was oblivious of the cake they brought in. Anyway, it wasn't expected after all. I was busy clearing my emails that time. Thanks emak and abah for meaningful presentation during your daughter's birth time!

Last Wednesday, we had an advanced birthday lunch. Parents decided to surprise me. Drove me to an anonymous restaurant, later, only to discover it was Bilal Res.tau.rant.

A sumptuous meal indeed, alhamdulillah.
( Spot the huge drinks? )

I'm not turning any younger. Although birthdays are a time of celebration, this is a time to reflect. The milestones of my life have been filled with a lot of colours. Alhamdulillah, the storms of life I once had is gone. I'm glad to be able to colour the last few years with rainbows.

Significantly...

I've learnt the meaning of listening and persevering things over the last few years. To appreciate someone as how or what the person is.Things that you believe you can achieve albeit hardships that you knew you had to face emotionally.

I've learnt not to let history repeats itself. To be aware that He is there if you seek His guidance. To relearn the wisdom of life by doing the right things and let it be a success.

I've learnt the traits that makes you a good servant of Him. To be in the circle of good friends inviting good and forbidding evil. Not fretting those not inviting you in their tidings of enjoyment. Instead, be glad.

Most importantly...

An important 25th year of difference deep down inside.
I have my close ones to share my twenty five years on earth.
I am able to breathe and witness the beauty of Allah's bounties.
He gives me the chance to seek repentance and keep renewing my faith in Him.

Thank you my friends and dearest ones (you know who you are)
for your prayers and well wishes today...

(I love the fabulous b'day message Farizi! *muah*)

Teachers' Day #2

The loot for me! Hee (Alhamdulillah)

What's in there?

Coincidentally, 99.5% of the gift boxes were of green and pink (Look below)

They also think that I'm...

And they surely can't differentiate between...

A Miss and a Mdm...
That's one lesson you have to learn, kids!

=)

Happy holidays cheechers!

Harapan

Pernahkah kamu terfikir, apabila kamu rasa ingin juga dihargai, daripada orang-orang yang terdekat, mereka yang tidak kamu sangka yang sebenarnya melakukan hal demikian?

Ada manusia yang menghargai dengan kata-kata. Ada pula melalui gerak-geri mereka. Bagaimana pula orang yang kamu harapkan tidak melakukan kedua-dua hal tersebut?

Adakah kamu akan berasa hampa? Kecewa? Atau pun menerima seadanya kerana orang yang dekat dengan kamu mungkin terlupa? Terlalu sibuk dengan hal ehwal lain hingga apa yang penting bagi dirimu kurang penting bagi mereka? Jika ini yang berlaku, mampukah kamu memaafkan mereka? Atau terus memendam rasa?

Lumrah manusia, pastinya ingin dihargai. Harapan tidak selalunya tercapai. Orang-orang yang terdekat selalunya menjadi sumber inspirasi dan sayap yang penting. Bila tiada kata-kata penghargaan dan terima kasih daripada mereka, kita mesti belajar memaafkan. Memaafkan memang sukar kalau tiada keikhlasan. Namun kita mesti cuba dan terus cuba.

Kerana pergantungan dan harapan kita hanya pada Dia.
Bila hati sedih rintihlah padaNya.
Supaya hati tenang dan lega semula.
Agar kita dapat bangun dan hidup kembali.

X X X

Kepada semua pendidik ku ucapkan Selamat Hari Guru.
Penat lelah kita hanya kita di arena yang mengerti.
Teruslah berjuang ...

Walaupun ada hari-hari yang kita rasa tidak dihargai, tiada yang berterima kasih.
Atau sesiapa yang mungkin tidak ingat langsung tentang hari istimewa ini.
Teruskan usahamu dengan penuh dedikasi...

Terima kasih kepada mereka yang memberikan ucap selamat kepadaku pada hari ini.
Thanks for remembering.

Teachers' Day Update #2 soon...

Manners of talking

"Eh, apa ni semua salah?"
"Macam nak kena ketuk ah kepala si dekni"
"Dah semua nak kena tukar!"

And the feeling of dissatisfaction keeps on going, saying unwise comments and thinking that the conveyor of the above is right while such comments are intended to the other person believed to be making huge mistakes.

What's the conclusion of this disagreement?

It happens that the conveyor is wrong from the start. What is thought to be right, is the conveyor's own fault, overlooking the actual procedures and lacking observation. In the end, he/she is ashamed because of his/her own blunder. And the team has to redo the whole process.

What can we learn from this?

As Muslims, we should know that talk is very dangerous. We should control it within the limits of Islam. From the example above, the person criticise others without reflecting one's self. And that is why, the saying goes, "Practice what you preach".
Worse when it comes from any Muslim brother/sisters to our non-Muslim friends.

How would you feel to be in that situation?

Even if I'm not involved, I'll be shaken by the slight commotion. I fear to be influenced by any Gheebah (backbiting) or Nameemah (spreading talk among people to make them hate one another).

Usually, people love to do things which are wrong. And when they feel the 'nikmat' of backbiting others, they don't realise that they are actually the masterminds of bad talks spreading around. We should not believe everything. It might just be a malicious hearsay. Play safe.

I really hope that Allah shelters me from any of these activities. The only thing I can do is to refrain from listening. To share with you my dear readers as a form of reminder to us.

They say, a tongue has no bones =)

Alwan Comics Online #2

For comic fans (da'wah serasi ummah) out there, Alwan Comics Online #2 is out!

Tagline for the comic online is minna lana (dari kita untuk kita). Congrats to fellow Alwaniyyun who had their submissions chosen. I hope I am able to contribute for their #3 edition. Too long hiatus since the crash of my laptop and lost the files. Sungguh tak istiqamah.

A peek at one of the entries. A loose page from bro Icesoul :

Click here to view the mag online : Alwan Online Comics #2

Enjoy!

Note to Wawan: If you read this, check it out! If not, Spiderman_Pink has to alert him!

Eternal Lover

To those who love the wonders of poetry
To those who long for His love & mercy
Let me share with you from my sorority,

Tiasa Hanafi *Sebelas Sekawan*

End of Exams, Start of Reads

Praise be to Him! At last the past weeks of struggle is here to end? Nope, but to pause for a while to wait for my 2nd semester. There are still my results *shrieks* to look out for. So what have I seen? Some left their prints in the beginning and decided to end their journey. Others bowed and took up new challenges. While the rest persevered and still continue despite the juggle of life's demands.

Been waiting for the end of today's final paper. So after exams, with His will, unexpectedly, bull's eye! The book I've been looking for the past few months but succeeded in getting only one. Browsed other shelves, and bull's eye! Another wanted book in my list! So, I purchased 2 books today! Retail therapy, books! Alhamdulillah, agaknya Allah nak aku rehat baca buku dulu, the least leisure I could attain (Although I've been missing a lot of any youth events or programmes out there).

BUT, nak kena habiskan Ayat-Ayat Cinta dulu lah... But I have a strong feeling I'll be read hopping these 3!

Merdeka! Buat sementara...

Exams, studies

Yesterday was a chilly examination day. No, not mine. The PSLE o.r.a.l e.x.a.m.s.
It was my first time posted out. For the past two exams experiences, I was stationed at my own school's holding room. This time round, I was supposed to be on standby in school. Due to some hiccups, I had to replace a colleague as o.r.a.l e.x.a.m.i.n.e.r 1. Meaning, I am posted to a school nearby. Basically, the responsibility of being the o.r.a.l e.x.a.m.i.n.e.r 1 is a bit higher than 2. But I was glad to be paired up with a colleague from my prac school days. At least, this is a chance for me to learn the ropes. She was helpful and cooperative.

It was raining heavily on the 2nd day. Felt like an air-con room instead. An examinee's antics was one of the chilliest moments I had that day. We were quite startled by his actions. 'Is he going to cry?', 'Is he A-okay?' or when he concluded and got up, 'Is he having a headache?' His actions were quite provoking. All the symptoms were quite troubling but luckily, nothing happened. At least, the 2nd day of exam was more interesting than the first.

As for my kids in school, they are definitely enjoying themselves with 2 short weeks of studies due to ND last week and the PSLE exams this week. Alhamdulillah, at least those holidays for them and short working day for me helped in a way or another for my 4 papers of exams. I still have my last exam paper to worry and I can't wait for it to end tomorrow.
Time to hit the notes and book! *piak*

The 2 mths of Celebration! When flowers bloom! An ode...

The past two months, were full of gardens blooming with natural scented flowers. Had been a chaotic chore for most of us, I believe. Plans and more plans just to keep in touch with each other. Matching colours for the upcoming BIG days as bridesmaids or chosen Maid of Honour and welcoming new members to the club! (Let's have a Husbands' Welcome Tea one day shall we? Lols)

'Ainul Husna & Hisyam [The hot date 070707]

One of my very close 11 sekawan. Had our fair share of lil' secrets during secondary years. Had our tuition years together. Her family and mine were in the same orang kampung days. Did the wedding poster for her. And of course, Hisyam is also a friend of mine during our virtual days back in my Pre-U years and so, it is absolutely a heartfelt to see this long relationship reach the most anticipated day!

'Azma & Firdaus [National Day, 9 August 2007]

Another one of my very close 11 sekawan. Of course, knowing each other's family and travelled together before is a plus point. And she's the only one from the early years in Saff who remains which doesn't leave me alone there. I'll miss those NIE lunch days, swimming, and wats nots. To top this up, she tied the knot with one of the NTUMS family! (That's his trademark, oh yea) A brother whom I respect and like to discuss matters during our MS days last time. At last, it did happen yes?

Nurhairiah & Sofyan [Post National Day, 11 August 2007]

My twin (if you pronounce our names in Arabic. That's why...). Yes, the BBC of 11 sekawan! Most news at the finger tips of hers. Basically we're close because of our names. We seldom meet because she's busy as well. But we'll keep up during our 11 sekawan gatherings. And family knows each other too (what's new?) I hope you like the simple wedding guestbook I did for you.

5 down! 6 more to go...
There's gonna be a break before another BIG day in 3 months' time.

I just can't believe it. To see my friends happily married. Those dear to me.
And it's always during the 'aqad that we'd see the tears of 11 sekawan.
Tears of happiness, tears of syukur.

X X X
p.s : Hid, pics of you that match our colour pls! You're wanted!

Soaring up high

Sometimes, they forget to look down.
They forget to relook. They forget to reflect.

Unless they understand and carry it out fairly.
Fair is not equal. It's based on one's capabilities.
Then they are there because of quality.

Doesn't mean they are high up there. They are better than you.
Something worth remembering.
Something comforting.
Short but sweet.
Thanks bro.

To you

I'm sorry.
My speed of updating is getting slower.
Life needs to be reorganised.
If only there's an auto reorganiser.
Oh well, lots of things are accelerating.
The space to breathe has been narrow.
It should and could have been better.
The positive and negative ions.
Seems to light up whenever they want.

It is affecting me.

InsyaAllah.
See you.
The end of this month.

#on hiatus

Who's YOUR role model?

Who's your idol? That's the question asked by Dr Danial recently from the talk held at Al-Iman mosque. I learnt a few new things like the bubble generation and emotional quotient. If I should ask my pupils, I'd surely be hearing common responses - superheroes or superstars.

But something caught my attention last few days. I had to relieve a class. While monitoring the pupils' work, I saw a beautiful hardcover book on his table from afar. It was a resemblance to some books I have at home. I approached him and took a look at the book. It read: Stories of the Prophet by Ibn Kathir. I was stunned by the title of the book. A 9 year old boy reading a book by Ibn Kathir? More elated by that fact, I asked him, "You read this book?" He nodded.

His parents might have bought the book for him. I really hope he is guided and be one of the Qur'anic generation; to emulate the characters of the Prophets in this multicultural society called the R.e.d D.o.t. So after browsing the pages, I replied, "It's a good book. Keep it up!" I smiled and observed the rest of the class...

Meaning of life

Kuatkan azam
Tekadkan iltizam
Ku takut tenggelam
Dalam kepekatan malam

Mengundang sejuta jawapan
Namun hanya kehampaan
Melewati hari-hari kelam
Sinarnya mana hanya suram

Andainya aku dapat bersuara
Dengan bintang-bintang di angkasa
Ingin ku petik cahayamu buat seketika
Agar fikrahku, sukmaku, jiwaku yang lara
Kembali bahagia

The Prophet PBUH said:
"And know that victory comes with patience, and with hardship there is a way out, and with difficulty comes ease."

InsyaAllah aku harapkan itu.
Perjuanganku belum tamat.
Persevering...

X X X
Missing URL tonight.

A nature-friendly island

Her pace, unlike our own red dot, is a luxury for those who like to roam the island in a car or a jeep. Her life is full of nature's bounties and cleanliness (without the FINES board everywhere). Being an island, thrice than our own, it seems small due to the minimal amount of high-rise buildings and of course, if you wish to savour your bliss with shopping, do stop by the shopping centres not later than 630pm.

There are many historical attractions with regards to her background identity. Having visited the island prolly 10 years ago, yours truly's stay embarked on a different journey instead. Having visited the tourist attraction and maintaining a vivid recollection of those childhood experiences, she spent more of her time with the flora and fauna of the Almighty's endless creations.

If you're keen on horse riding or never tried one, there's a ranch where you can rent a horse for half an hour or an hour depending on your route. That's where I met my horsy friend, named Rudi (not the one on your left). I had a bumpy ride both in the jungle and the beach. Sounds cool, huh? =)

For those of you wish to step ahead to another level, you'll be able to do mountain climbing on a horse! But after you've been trained, of course.

(Jots down in my to-do-list)

These rabbits won't let you off. Once you're hooked, you'll get a stint of their ants bite. They'll chase after you and hop onto your lap; if you own food on your palms, that is. I prefer the baby bunnies though. Kept in the cage. The best thing was, me and my cousins held the cuties that matched our outfit.


How bout feeding the deers instead? Can't remember where's my temp messenger. All looked the same, hehe. I enjoy feeding them milk and food than the rabbits. The only thing you need is tolerance.. and persevere their ticklish tongues.. thus, saliva!

We had a special treatment from the 'gembala' to visit Tommy (another deer kept behind the fences with other friends). He has just developed new horns and we gave it leaves. Just to let you know that a deer like this drinks 4 big bottles of milk.

Other than our animals' galore, I had fun in water sports. This island's a good spot for water sports as well. I tried parasailing, much different from the one I had in Kinabalu. Much tougher as you need to descend with your hands coordination. Again, jetskiing's one of the best activities I had. I ended up with cramps as I had to ride it four times, twice on my own and twice, my cousins as my pillion. It was indeed an outdoorish way of spending the only 1 week pure holidays for me on my own with the loved ones.

News Flash!

Message from widz:

She has just touched down homeland yesterday night. She'll prolly update when she's free from the recent trip she had. Oh, who am i? Hehe, just a temp messenger of hers. Stay tune!

Much Love,
xx A rusa from Langkawi xx

Lending a helping hand

Wa ta'aawanuu 'alal birri wat-taqwaa...

"And help one another in righteousness and piety..." [Al-Maidah:2]

What does righteousness mean to you? Is it doing things the right way? Or more often we'd say, do the right things. I'd prefer, doing the right things the right way, rooted with pure intentions before actions. When we intend to help, it signifies righteousness with a true devotion to gain His blessings. It's a reward gained metaphysically - something unseen, non-material but returns in which stay for eternity.

Say, volunteerism. An act of willingness without any tangible gain. Depending on your special abilities and talents, you work the extra mile to lend a hand for the benefit of society. Doesn't matter which organization be it a Muslim or a non-Muslim one you're involved with, being a volunteer is certainly an ibadah. While others possess the abilities to lead, the fresher ones need the experience and gradually gain skills for personal development. And it's always the level of satisfaction in a successful event that causes the heart and will to continue future events for a good cause.

Most importantly, you volunteer because of the passion you have. Being forced into one defeats purpose of volunteering. Because every small act makes a difference. Because it matters. And it's been quite a hiatus. Good to be back to get a break from work commitments. A short temp mentor for the night and photographer for the whole event. A nice feeling to be working together with my dear ikhwan and akhawat again, catching up and to gain sight of unexpected discoveries from one another.

'Ukhuwwah itu indah jika bertemu dan berpisah keranaNya'

dan indah juga kerana hari itu aku singgah sebentar ke walimah sahabat yang rapat...

Remembered the times we mugged at the benches, at the BioSci building, my hostel.
A good ukhuwwah indeed.
Now, you embark on a new journey.

To Karima & Hafiz,

بارك الله لكما وجمع بينكم في خير

May Allah bless the both of you and unite you both in goodness.
Aameen.

Alhamdulillah

Heart throbbed a little. That's normal when you have to collect your results.
Have you ever felt that you'd really flunk (F) that paper and in the end you had a grade much better than that?

Remembering the moment when pens were down, well, it's all in Allah's hands. Some friends said that it's not easy to juggle between work and studies. I remembered as well the news I read on BH about being undergrads, like the path my colleagues are taking in S/I/M. It's not easy, but much tougher when you have a family. So how will I cope when I have a family later? Time management, oh yea.

I guess it's all in the mind. If you want it, you go for it with a good intention. What I mean by this, is the intention of learning something towards the redha of Allah. Prayers from the soleh, your parents, your good brothers and sisters are vital, to ease your path InsyaAllah.

"Say [unto them, O Muhammad]: Are those who know equal to those who know not? But only men with understanding will pay heed" (39:9)

I need that extra effort. The effort for me to understand more than my current state of understanding. Like a lecturer told me and others whom I've heard before, the more you want to know, the more you realise you don't know'.

There's no point to look back and regret how things could've been better during the full-time student phase. The reality is now. You've learned, you've changed and hopefully keep on changing for the better.

Back to my results, I could have not been happier. My ultimate syukur goes to Allah who endlessly prove His Greatness to this servant of His. Thank you to abah and emak for your prayers and my closed ones. Maintaining IS tough. But I'm willing to try...

Happy Birthday!

Selamat sweet 17 to Muhammad Farid, yesterday!
Yeap, like I text you cousin, may you be a good Muslim brother in your life and may Allah bless you with happiness dunya and akhirah. And yeap, I surely am proud of you in your mosque youth activities. Keep it up and look ahead!

On paternal's side, belated birthday to Md Afif on the 300507 and his own brother, Md Amsyar today!

+ Done with group MCQ setting assignment for Usul Fiqh
+ 2 more assignments to go (still thinking which topics to choose)

Oh yeah, I'm just having a full one week break these holidays. A pure one week break without the need to think of work. I think the hols are getting lesser and lesser.



Two more books in the list apart from the current reading. Ok, the book hopping factor again. But enjoyed it all at the moment. So first:

Left: It's hard cover a Best Seller Novel. Theme? Novel Psikologi Islami Pembangun Jiwa. Yet to know the content area of it. Wasn't my initial plan to buy. Couldn't find Ketika Cinta Bertasbih.
Right: Pudarnya Pesona Cleopatra. Same author, and much much thinner compared to the latter. Can't resist books.

In the first place, I planned to submit an entry for the local sastera competition in the cerpen (short stories) category. But I think my writings are not up to that level. Either that, or I just have no idea of creating or improvising any plots. Made me remind of my students who are good in language, but lack ideas. Haha. But nevermind, let me spend more time writing on my 2 assignments without fusing the flowery part like a cerpen.

Happy holidays!

Dimensi

Dimensi...
Kalimah antara aku dan Kau
Bisikan isi hati dalam perjalanan

Dahaga...
Memandang dalam lubuk hati
Mengisi kekosongan sepi

Duga...
Tiada mahu kufur ni'matmu
Benar di hadapan mataku

Du'a...
Kerana dimensi ku dahaga
Yang tiada duga kerana du'a
Pabila maqbul kalimah itu
Hanya mampu ku ucap
Alhamdulillaah

Walau sebentar, amat bermakna
Sukar, masih sukar...
Sabar, terus bersabar...
Apapun jua, sujudku tadi keranaMu
Kerana detik itu...
Terima kasih Ya Allah...

X X X

" Keberkatan Allah ini tidak dapat hendak kita gambarkan sebab hati yang akan terasa ketenangan itu. Kesannya bukan seminggu dua tetapi sampai ke hari tua.

Biarlah bersusah-susah sedikit asalkan syariat Allah dapat kita jaga dengan baik. "

-hanan

Weekend Sleepover

Alhamdulillah, it's not only the ties of faith that bind us together. The fact that a few of us are stepping into another phase of life add to the excitement during weekend while reminiscing old memories. I'm sure there are others who appreciate good company with old time friends, the growing up years... and for us, it keeps on growing insyaAllah till the end of time.

The late night scary-became-comical vcd...

The Man U VS Chelsea night..

The exchange of gifts reflecting ourselves...

The truth or dare for brides-2-be...

The morning breakfast delivery...

The X-Box games...

The warm jacuzzi and the hilarious pool stunts...

Not forgetting,

Our trademark: The cramp lift shot =)
Just endless...

Well, perhaps, we might not feel it now. I am sure, when the time is near and when all of you begin to take that new role, things will be much different. But I hope, our friendship will stay all the same. Well brides-2-be, I'm happy for you. And I'm glad that all 11 of us stayed for the night although 3 had to go off early...

Thanks, Hotel Rendezvous.
Heartfelt, dearest buddies.

* * *

On a deeper note,

- Lappy crashed, thus the lost of precious files.
- Trip to KK cancelled, Ophir as well. Maybe, those were signs I guess.

Holidays coming! Wee~

*Extracted shots courtesy of 'Ainul's

Empunya diri

Diri hairan mengapa manusia mudah menerima berita tanpa usul periksa? Kadangkala, jujur bicara juga sukar diterima. Alasan mereka, mungkin diri ini tidak mahu berterus terang. Natijahnya, diri kecil hati. Adakalanya bercampur iri hati, yang baik, bukan iri yang negatif.

Sedangkan empunya diri tidak tahu mana titik akhirnya impian. Mengapa mereka yang lain sibuk dengan empunya diri? Hujung pangkalnya tidak pernah jelas, sibuk dengan sangkaan dan pernyataan mereka sendiri. Jika memang benar cahaya itu jelas di mata, pasti ku mohon du'a mereka.

Akarnya, aku tiada pasti. Mengapa mereka cuba memastikan diri ini? Sedangkan soalan itu ditujukan tepat padaku. Jujur bicara pun jadi alasan aku dusta? Diri hanya mampu berdo'a. Bukan diri tidak ingin impian itu tercapai. Namun demikian, biarlah masa yang menentukan. Jika tiada mengerti dan tidak pernah mengetahui, usah meneka membabi buta. Biarlah kebenaran datang dengan sendirinya. Diri tidak perlu berbicara panjang.

Biar ketenangan ini hanya pada mereka yang memahami diri. Sekalung kasih kepada mereka yang setia dan memahami. Ku panjatkan syukur kepada Illahi kerana diri masih mampu bersabar setiap kali dirundung jalan berliku.

Kepada yang memahami kata-kataku, du'a dari taulan dan teman ku harapkan.
Mungkin juga, tiada yang memahami bait-bait kataku ini kecuali Illahi... Aaameen...

On another note, I really hope one of my darlings come to class tmr.
I really hope I can solve this particular problem. The problem with kids' crisis.
Indeed, quite melancholic seh today...

“You shall certainly be tried and tested in your possessions and in your personal selves; and you shall certainly hear much that will grieve you, from those who received the Book before you and from those who worship many gods. But if you persevere patiently, and guard against evil, then that will be a determining factor in all affairs.” (Surat Aal-e-Imran, 3:186)

Dear Allah, your guidance is needed badly...

Do you listen?

I wonder, out of 100%, how much do we listen? Say, while communicating, do we dominate the conversation or allow space for other people to contribute their few cents worth?

Not only at home, communication plays a part in every facet of our lives. It plays an important role in people-oriented jobs. Thus, when communication is involved, the etiquettes of conversing are vital in ensuring the equilibrium of both parties.

However, the art of listening is in the brink of extinction. Misunderstandings occur because sometimes, you snap out of an explanation and remain at loggerheads. None of you wants to give in. You refuse to listen.

When someone listens, we let this creative foundation inside us to bloom and expand. Why? Someone is willing to lend a listening ear. This motivates the speaker to cast up new thoughts and receive positive responses from the listener.

Listening increases our level of patience. There may be times when we disagree with our friends or family members. Mastering the art of listening would allow us not to press against them. Once upon a time ago, someone portrayed the importance of listening to me, thus increasing the level of patience. Since then, it’s a beautiful feeling.

Branda Ueland, a prolific author and columnist once quoted…

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We should all know this: that listening, not talking,
is the gifted and great role, and the imaginative role.
And the true listener is much more beloved, magnetic
than the talker, and he is more effective and learns more
and does more good
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Aligning with the Quran...

The believers' true patience, however, is very different from mere endurance. They are aware that Allah creates whatever happens to them for a reason, and that therefore it contains some hidden benefit. Knowing that Allah has determined the best possible destiny for them, they meet everything with pleasure and an open heart.

Allah tells the faithful to adopt this attitude in the following verse:
"Those who are steadfast and put their trust in their Lord"
(Surat al-'Ankabut, 59).

We never know that by listening, we may be able to learn or even share new things.

So, don’t just listen. Be a true listener. ^-^

Meeting deadlines

These past few days...
With deafening ears, with a heart that bleed, when patience was tested

These past few days...
Chasing the time, when fingers were dancing, with red ink blots, the owner would doze, can't continue no more

These past few days...
When all ages irritate you, when the phase of the term is rushing mad hour, when the space you call home becomes your workplace

The irony, the irony of it all...
*At this point, I wouldn't want to increase new zits, help!*

It's everywhere, to my left, right, above and below.
Even in the car. Even in the room. Everywhere.

Games? Chat? Shop?
The least ways to ease the self and relax.
So you're talking about a weekend break? 'Where got? Use your blain...' Ala PCK.
I've been coming I tell ya. Thus, enduring, phew.
But there's always a limit to one's health.

Meeting here meeting there meeting everywhere
Complain here complain there complain everywhere
Up Down Left Right
Maybe people would ask...
Any committee board?
No.
Any management board?
No.
So, which?
Whiteboard, everyday =P
The loyal one...

me, painting reality...

Repentance, awareness of God, and uprightness are the foundations of all that is beneficial. Know that repentance is a key, God consciousness (taqwa) is vast, and uprightness is the source of rectification. [Shaykh Ahmad al Zarruq]

Quality Time

The Greatest One allowed me to reunite with the strong pillars of my life recently, after seeking solace in the Land of Arabia. Alhamdulillah, I hope this chance upgraded yours truly in ruh and jasad, albeit the downside of it. Although it wasn't much of a hassle settling things being independent, the fact that some testing period was thought provoking.

The moment abah appeared, I had to look twice. Perhaps it's the weather there. True enough. But I'm glad that Allah has taken care of their health in mulahaqah, the pursuit of eternal Love.

The delaying time for arrival at the airport allowed me to let my kitchen smoke specially for 'em. Infact, back home, the mini affair expanded when the extended family members came to try the dish. Luckily I got thumbs up, phew.

- - -

The last day of April and the first 2 days of May can be considered a-year-wiser celebration for the family, both maternal and paternal. Quality time with loved ones must be treasured. Taking over will be the next generation. Thus, the strength of the family bond. This time round, with the paternal side @ Costa Sands.

Paternal's

Maternal's - Dearest cousin and aunty

May Allah bless this journey and shower His Love & Redha to all of you. May we be a good support system to one another in good and bad times. Baarakallahu Fiikum my loved ones!

When the going gets tough

Days come and go, leaving memories printed in our hearts.
Some may regard their lives as a routine.
Others, exploring and discovering more of what's installed for 'em.

As time goes forward and never stagnant
We are forced to think and move ahead
As we grow older and hopefully wiser
We can't run from new responsibilities

And as a Muslim, our days should better
Today from yesterday, tomorrow than present
And as I think much deeper in detail
I wonder, keep on wondering

Earlier today, the sharings yours truly had
With some dear sisters on the facets of life
The truth, when reality bites
The things we think of when age rises
Dilemma of sisters?

Can't deny the fact I have to go through
When the going gets tough, the tough gets going
But it's all a matter of the equipments you bring
The knowledge you instill
As much as I'm not a super woman
I should learn from the 'alim

At least it's a wake up call I bring upon myself
And I hope when the time comes
I'll be able to juggle them
Life will change, and I have started some
But I just need consistency
To continue with the rest
To achieve something for the benefit
Of myself, and the people I care and love...

Saturday Summit

Kekuatan bukan terletak pada tubuh yang sasa. Kekuatan bukan juga terletak pada tajamnya sindiran kata. Kekuatan terletak pada manisnya bicara berhikmah, juga pada kesabaran yang dipilih dalam kemarahan.

Kesabaran perlu dipraktikkan dalam kehidupan seharian. Setiap hari, kita dibelenggu dengan pelbagai masalah. Kita sering mengata dan mengherdik rakan-rakan kerana hilang pertimbangan. Mungkin terlupa bahawa kita, insan kerdil, mesti bijak mengimbangi diri dan menilai buruk dan baik perbuatan kita.

Kesabaran ibarat mendaki bukit atau gunung. Beratnya timbangan beg yang kita bawa umpama timbunan masalah yang dipikul. Adakah beg itu dibuang ke tepi? Atau kita keluarkan isi di dalam beg itu kerana benda-benda itu adalah keperluan kita juga? Kalau mahukan beg ringan, keluarkan makanan yang perlu, jadi ringankan? Begitu juga dengan masalah, kita keluarkan satu persatu dan cuba leraikan supaya menjadi ringan.

Masalah akan tetap datang. Sama seperti beg kita tadi. Kalau kita perlu mandi, baju yang basah akan menyebabkan beg kita berat semula. Dengan beg yang berat itu jugalah kita perlu teruskan perjalanan menuju destinasi impian. Jangan lupa senyum :)

Cuma hari Sabtu lalu, masalahku tidak seberat mana. Hanya mengajak teman-teman yang ingin sama berjuang walaupun destinasinya berbeza. Harap-harap destinasi impianku menjadi. Kepada J, jadikan penghijrahan baru ini satu batu loncatan ke arah kejayaan. Semoga berjaya dalam kerjaya baru.

Selamat maju jaya, J!

"The secret of happiness is to see all the marvels of the world, and never to forget the drops of oil on the spoon." - Paulo Coelho

Unravel the news!

Remembered the day when I was told he was not accepted.
In this rat-race society, everyone wants something satisfying.
Something that leads them to their comfort zone.
And to get that, they need to pay the price.
On the other hand, those who easily got through, stumble and and fall from grace.
Was it because of glory? Popularity? Peers?

And Allah has His ways of testing His servants.
Even when you think you have failed.
When chance is not by your side.
Maybe it's a wake up call for you.
Anything can change with a twist of fate.

His hopes were shattered although he was eligible.
During the results, that March.
At the last minute, today, his dreams came true.
To be placed in one of the tertiary institutions.
A faculty which breeds outdoor potentials.

One just graduated from the design faculty. Did well. My Izdi.
One a freshie in the adventure scene. Hope to excel. My Ayid.
Both fields, passion of mine as well.
It runs in the blood, I guess.

Welcome to poly life my dear Ayid.
Dip in Outdoor & Adventure Learning, huh?
Great.
Another potential whom I'd tap for resources, hihi.
And of course, for future developments.

There was a verse of poetry that stated:

the coming days shall unravel the mystery and the news may appear from where you could never see

And when you ask Him for guidance, you should believe. He'll show you.

Just another news that made my day seemed brighter.

You're a lucky chap. I'm a delighted cousin.

Past, Present & Future

It wasn't a turning point of life.
The big turning point happened few years ago.
But yesterday, when eyes met, the only thing was to let it be.
She smiled radiantly, not emitting hope. Perhaps, that distant smile.
Almost hugged, the warmest, to yours truly.

Exchanged news. Felt happy on the current situation.
That was the choice made, for the better.
Then, we had our goodbyes.

Needed solace the moment the engine was off.
Stayed awhile in the car with surging emotions.
It was gushing. The mind went blank.
Still walking forward is the best medicine.
It has worked so far.
Past actions were lessons to succeed in life.

Like some snippets of a story from Qisas,

“Then you must do one of two things, either forgive or leave that person to Allah and pray for justice.”
It would be better and a higher level of piety.”
“I cannot.”
“Then you must leave that person to Allah and move forward.”

* * *

"Look at your past straight in the eyes and resolve it. Say goodbye to it, turn and move forward. Leave the past where it belongs — in the past. And don’t carry it with you to burden your present.”

* * *

“ You have control over how you act towards life’s events. Your reactions steer your life.”
“ What about forgiveness?”
“ Yes, forgiveness is the highest and most noble of virtues. When you are hurt by careless words, say, ‘For all the times I’ve spoken thoughtlessly, I forgive you.’ If someone oppresses you, say, ‘For all the times I’ve misused my power, I forgive you.’ If someone cheats you and betrays you, say, ‘For every time I’ve been a fool, I forgive you.’ Then the One who is the source and owner of love, forgiveness, and mercy will take you close to Him and your heart will be free.”

And I do need your forgiveness Allah.

For the heedless word I've said.

To those I've hurt.

At any time or any place.

And to the person whom our eyes met,

insyaAllah, hope to meet you once more

On the special day...

12 Rabi'ul Awal - Musim Bunga Yang Pertama *_*

12 Rabi'ul Awal...
Hari ini datang lagi
Menggamit sejuta impi
Bermula satu revolusi

Lahirmu...
Sebagai insan inspirasi
Menjadi tamsil kendiri
Ummah mencari identiti

Perjuanganmu...
Jalankan perintah tanpa henti
Walau perit tetap mendaki
Junjung tinggi ilmu pekerti

Rasulullah...
Panjimu ke arah kebenaran
Kisahmu sebagai tauladan
Ikutan sepanjang zaman
Peribadimu tiada bandingan

widz : 8.45am : 12 Rabi'ul Awal


***
انما بعثت لأتمم مكارم الأخلاق
"Sesungguhnya Aku telah diutuskan semata-mata untuk menyempurnakan kemuliaan akhlak.”
They say, we should remember and cherish those we love.
Every moment.
Our family, our friends.
We should love Rasulullah more,
with so much hanaan.
Are we doing so?
*nods*

Hence my next question:
Are we really emulating his attributes?
Or our actions are merely,
attributing to plain desire

Thus, yesterday, a thought provoking question,

by my witty pupil:

"Cikgu, kenapa orang tua aje yang boleh marah orang muda?
Kenapa orang muda tak boleh marah orang tua?"

Inqusitiveness occured from a lesson of antonyms - Hormat x Biadap

As they regard a teacher-must-know-everything,
I answered.

What would you answer?

It's all a matter of akhlak, baby.

Let us keep reflecting and renew our relationship

with The Best Personality Man, Rasulullah.

With Iman, Islam, and 'Ilm.

detik masa

Bila sesuatu menghantui diri kita, hati rasa kurang tenteram. Degupan jantung lebih cepat dari biasa. Selepas itu kita cuba renungkan semula. Adakah ini yang sepatutnya aku rasa? Adakah betul perbuatanku? Kemudian, kita jejak semula niat kita yang asal. Adakah di landasan yang benar atau kurang sesuai?

Kali ini, aku akan cuba lepaskan. Lepaskannya supaya aku belajar lebih kesabaran dan mungkin kepada lebih ketaqwaan. Apapun hikmahnya, mungkin itu yang terbaik buatku. Tiba-tiba malam ini aku terasa amat hiba. Mula-mula, bila terpandang ayat dari msn rakanku tadi, aku mengerti tanpa berasa. Kini, detik ini jua ,aku memandangnya kali kedua...

"Sadness isn't painful, it's trying not to feel sad that hurts..."

Mengapa?
Mungkin kerana...
Ah, aku harus terima.

A long semester ahead

At last, the schedule's out.

I can't wait for Islam & Psychology module.
I recalled attending a workshop on Counselling & Islam @ CIMS last 2 years.
The handouts are somewhere in the house, huhuh.

The only grinch is the double papers to sit for a day.
With effect from the decreasing no. of days, I shall grit my teeth.
A paper a day is already hard to bear.
4 papers in 2 days?
Calling for organiser of my life!

Sem 2's module:

+ Intro to Fiqh
+ Intro to Usul Fiqh
+ Islam & Psychology
+ Intro to Sociology

Yeah, Dr Osmani is here again! *Hoorah*

x x x

Thx to my newest device to ease my work.
Another retail dilemma though.
Must go Sim Lim!

Another prayer which I hope will be answered.
For the love of them.

March news

I can blog with ease due to the following factors:


+ Exams over. Resuming lectures in a few weeks.

+ Holidays! Engaged in fruitful activities, being work or leisure, the outdoorish way!

Most importantly, the 3 important dates in my diary...

* * *

4zerozero bux to spend. On? Any ideas?
I'd prefer electronic/IT stuffs though.
Either hardware or software ;)

Defining success

The path of success comes in many ways. Traditional for most I would say. What defines success? Is it the paper you receive albeit deficient in practical? Perhaps the level of satisfaction one gains? Or striving and attaining the best in a cohort of average peers? Getting into the field you had to, not that you want to? Or passion over peer pressure?

Through observation, regretting one's initial choice would result in withdrawal. While others, rejection causes the urge to appeal, thus excelling in a particular course of study.

Wouldn't say mine was traditional. A slower pace than my peers. Choice was not the only reason. But situation made me decide. Reflecting back, I would realise how silly I was. I could have chosen things I had passion for. Initially I felt a sense of remorse. I could have completed earlier.

Thinking ahead now. It was a choice. Although it might have been better. And the choice in a way or another contributed to my current phase in life. It wasn't due to a factor, but other existing reasons I firmly believe, and happy with. Indeed, a path towards discovery.

And I thank Allah for the special things that sparkle my life. Without Him guiding us through, we surely wouldn't make it, lah!

So, I feel much better after expressing my thoughts. Counting down...

+ 2 more days to exams. (mine, not the pupils)

+ only 2 days possible to start revising starting tonight

+ tonight for completing the uncompleted assignment

+ tonight to assess the unmarked diagnostic exercises

+ tonight to evaluate pupils' achievement rubrics to parents to be given tomorrow

May Allah enlighten and ease these responsibilities...

Between passion and pressure

^^ I've decided to commit more in photography. Thus, my current indulgence with other photo enthusiasts in the virtual hub. It has been a fun experimental activity, a chance to reduce another tight period of the week. A chance to do something without pressure by people around me. It's too expensive to buy a pro so I'm just playing around with my current gadget.

^^ Chatted with a friend yesterday pertaining the offer. Although it was still in the proposed stage for implementation, there's an extra boon if I were to accept it (in case, they really need my expertise). Maybe I could plan a flowchart on a long-term basis. Perhaps, some advices from people. And of course, searching for a good sign from High Above.

^^Iz's Graduates' Design Showcase 07, and their theme prescrip+ion was a success @ NLB recently. He was put i/c and basically I could feel the hardwork these students had for the past few days. They are really potentials. I may not be able to step in the same shoes as him (how i wish i could, long story), but I shared the happiness and I'm glad he made it through final year. Alhamdulillaah.

So if you plan on going for the Show, it ended on Monday. Unplanned, me and my mum ended up with the other family members. My weekend was splendid with the loved ones around.

While waiting for the rest to reach, me and mum went to Aksara (The passage of Malay scripts), Level 10. One good thing about it? A free booklet with good colour printing

quality as a takeaway. Also reminded me of my lectures and tutorials on the Melayu Kuno(old) stuffs. The info provided to the visitors brought me back to sessions where I had tons of lecture notes to memorize the pertaining History of Malay Writings during my first year in school.

^^ I doubt the satisfaction I might gain this year. Some things are materializing but improper. The mission towards the vision is clouded by unwanted actions and lacking direction. It is not surprising if people are gradually absent. And I happen to be one of them only after the second day (only that I'm still present).

Mudik ke hulu

Teringin untuk aku ungkapkan fikrahku melalui bait-bait kata yang indah; membina frasa-frasa yang mampu meninggalkan mesej kepada mereka yang ikhlas membacanya. Besar hatiku pula melihat mereka yang lebih mantap mengatur watak-watak melalui bakat melukis untuk tatapan mereka yang meminati seni grafik, kerana objektif da'wah serasi ummah. Ada pula yang dianugerahkan kedua-dua bakat dan digarap dengan sifat istiqamah untuk sentiasa membina jiwa dan diri agar segala mesej yang ingin disampaikan meninggalkan kesan yang mendalam kepada penerima.

Sedangkan diri seorang insan yang masih kerdil ini belum tentu mampu untuk beristiqamah dengan anugerah-anugerah yang ada. Semangat yang kuat sahaja tidak cukup. Kaki perlu menapak.Langkah perlu diorak. Bak kata orang 'pelan-pelan kayuh eh'. Ya, memang, insan ini memang boleh berkayuh. Cuma, belum tentu hilir mudiknya. Harap-harap berbaloi.

Usaha mesti ada. Ikhtiar tak lupa. Moga-moga perjuangan ini, jika dihadapkan kepada yang di Atas, dipermudahkan perjalanan. Bersama mereka yang berada di medan ini memetikkan semangat insan untuk terus mencuba. Aameen ya Rabb.

Munajatku di sepertiga malam

Wahai Kekasihku...
Tiada tolok bandingnya
Kesedaran yang pernah
Kau titipkan sedetik dahulu

Wahai Kekasihku...
Walau pernah hampir
Pada azab sengsara
Yang menzalimi diri

Wahai Kekasihku...
Setelah hidayahMu
Dan peluang kedua bagiku
Enggan ku paling lagi dariMu

Wahai Kekasihku...
Walau masih ada ku mungkiri
KeampunanMu tiada bertepi
Haru sungguh rasa hati

Wahai Kekasihku...
RedhaMu ku harapkan
Kasih sayangMu ku dambakan
Du'a ini ku panjatkan

Wahai Kekasihku...
Syukurku atas bimbinganMu
Syukurku atas petunjukMu
Syukurku atas tariqMu

Wahai Kekasihku...
Tiada apa kecuali ta'at
Yang ku harap meningkat
Di atas segala ni'mat
Kepada da'ie antara du'at

Wahai Kekasihku...
Kau buktikan lagi kekuasaan
Dari hati yang pernah kelam
Ku gantung pengharapan
Penyinar nur keimanan

Wahai Kekasihku...
Ku sayu namun senyum
Ku sujud tanda syukur


X X X

Sayu. Sujud. Syukur
Moga dipeliharakan
Dalam du'a. hati. inspirasi.

Ya-ya's sistahood yummiegood...

What makes a good sister in Islam such a yummy and rewarding feeling? Those whom attain that level of sisterhood would feel the warmth and comfort. Just beyond words. Difficulties of seeing each other made the hearts grow fonder. Ties of faith, binded together under the same kalimah.

Surprises, surprise. Are we able to take the heat when changes happen and don't stay the way we want them to be? Are we being too relaxed in our comfort zone that we might not be able to adapt to changes? It looks almost perfect to me. The moments, the times shared. Yes, it means a lot. But like it or not, we'll go through a different phase, sooner or later. You, I or they will go. And when that day comes, we'll leave with respect and love for each other.

Thank you my dear sisters. We have planted seeds of knowledge in this journey. The seeds of sisterhood have grown to six beautiful flowers, insyaAllah. The flower pots in the same garden might be replaced with other plants. Hopefully, we'll still stay beautiful with other nourishments that'll improve the outlook of the current flowers now.

:: The only constant thing is change.
Paradigm shift is bound to happen. ::

Garap ilmu yang sudah ada

Pernah tidak kamu berasa semakin dalam ilmu yang dicari, semakin cetek dan kurang ilmu pengetahuan yang kita ada selama ini? Pernahkah berasa bosan apabila ilmu yang sudah diketahui diulang sekali lagi?

Dalam hidup, ada ilmu yang sudah kita tahu dan mungkin telinga kita selalu diingatkan dengan perkara-perkara yang sudah lali. Namun demikian, sedarlah bahawa itu semua merupakan peringatan kepada diri kita kerana manusia mudah lupa.

Ada ilmu pula yang sudah lama kita belajar tetapi kerana jarang digunakan, jadi berkarat. Apakah kesimpulannya? Gilapkan semula ilmu yang sudah berkarat itu. Jangan ingat kita pernah belajar dengan elok suatu masa dulu, akan elok pada masa kini. Terpulang kepada empunya diri yang menggunakan ilmu itu.

Niat amat penting apabila kita menimba ilmu. Elakkan dari menunjuk-nunjuk. Kalau kita disuruh belajar semula ilmu-ilmu yang sudah berkarat itu, jangan merungut. Jadikan itu suatu proses untuk memantapkan semula tugu yang pernah berdiri kukuh satu masa dulu. InsyaAllah, pulih semula ilmu yang berkarat menjadi kilat bercahaya.

Amacam?

Daarut Tahfiz?

Bayangkan kalau bayi-bayi yang baru lahir ini didendangkan dengan surah-surah setiap hari di wad-wad hospital. Mungkin dapat hasilkan genius-genius Haafidz dan Haafidzah yang ulung? Hehe...

Amacam?

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A sweet gesture

The boy who wasn't bright as the others
Lacked the focus he needed
Preferred to talk or call
His peers as he wishes

The boy who can achieve better
As the key should be guidance
Coming to the end of second week
'Cikgu, saya buat ni untuk cikgu' (Teacher, I did this for you)

Ten neatly folded stars
Pretty and colourful
Passed from his hands to mine
A first gift so far this year

With a brink of hope
To shine those stars
That'll be the day
When he has shaped himself
To be a better person

It's nice when you're remembered
When you've tapped somewhere in their hearts
Without realising, that's the beauty
Beauty of shaping hearts
Priceless valuables...

'I like a teacher who gives you something to take home to think about besides homework.'- Lily Tomlin

Dilema Episod 1

Tidak tertahan lagi. Kembali setelah sebulan menyepi. Bila diperiksa, tiada yang pasti. Malam ini aku diserang lagi. Nampaknya, masalah ini perlu diselesaikan secepat mungkin. Aku masih perlu bertahan beberapa hari lagi.

Hari Isnin, tidak boleh ambil cuti. Anak-anak kecil siapa nak ganti? Tak boleh, tak boleh, tak boleh cuti! Kena tunggu beberapa hari lagi. Sementara itu, ubat yang paling mujarab untukku sekarang ialah menelan pil penenang lalu tidur. Untuk beberapa hari ni juga, biar aku bersandar sedikit dengan pil-pil itu.

Saat ini, sakitnya sudah naik ke telinga. Berdesing rasanya. Nampaknya persiapan untuk hari pertama ke kerja perlu dihentikan sekarang.

Terima kasih taulan kerana baca cerita yang tidak seberapa. Tidak tertahan lagi.

Ku undur diri, wassalaam.

Ni'mat

Pernahkah kita terasa bahawa ada masanya, ni'mat datang bergolek tanpa diduga? Apakah perasaan kita pabila saat itu datang? Apakah yang akan kita lakukan?

Ni'mat itu tidak semestinya berupa kebendaan. Tidak kira sama ada perkara yang berlaku itu dapat dipegang atau dilihat, tetapi adakalanya hanya dapat dirasai dengan hati kita. Pada masa yang lain pula, ni'mat yang kita rasai, berlakunya bukan kerana kebetulan, tetapi ketentuan olehNya.

Sebagai seorang hamba, kita telah diberi ni'mat yang paling indah iaitu Iman dan Islam. Jika kita cuba untuk layari hidup dengan pegangan yang kita ada, ni'mat yang kita perolehi akan menjadikan kita orang yang lebih bersyukur. Harap-harap kesyukuran yang kita panjatkan membantu kita menjadi manusia yang lebih insaf. Kadangkala terfikir mengapa masih lagi dilimpahkan dengan ni'mat yang banyak sedangkan diri masih lagi kita anggap kerdil dan lemah. Bukankah yang memberi kita rezeki itu yang Maha Pemurah? Selagi nyawa belum di hujung, kita masih ada peluang untuk sedar dan mensyukuri ni'mat yang ada.

Ni'mat yang datang itu indah bila sesuatu yang terjadi sebenarnya disusun indah sebagai ketentuan dariNya. Yang penting, cubalah latih diri kita untuk membuat sesuatu keranaNya walaupun perkara yang kita lakukan itu memerlukan pengorbanan yang mengundang cubaan zahir dan batin.

Salah satu ni'mat yang patut kita syukuri ialah ni'mat dapat berkumpul dengan orang-orang yang kita sayangi. Hargailah mereka kerana ni'mat seperti wujudnya institusi kekeluargaan adalah salah satu ni'matNya kepada manusia dengan curahnya kasih sayang sesama insan... ;)

Sumber gambar: 'Eidul Adha 2006