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Apa yang menceriakan bumi
Setiap hari setiap waktu pagi
Membuat wajah berseri

Bagaimana tumbuh-tumbuhan
Terus segar didalam kehijauan
Di dalam hutan dan taman
Nur... cahaya sakti

Di tengah kegelapan malam
Ketika bintang di langit berkerdip-kerdipan
Indah seri sang rembulan

Ketika insan kealpaan
Ketika kejahilan menutup kesedaran
Siapa petunjuk jalan

Nur... cahaya sakti

Nur adalah kuasa semulajadi
Nur adalah asal asli rohani
Nur tercipta dari azali
Nur... nur... nur...

Do you remember this song? I'm sure those Art Fazil listeners know this very well. I fancy his songs. Basically, I love songs which make you reflect on life. I mean yes, songs do reflect realities of life. But ones which reflect on humanity and touches the power of the Almighty is something which is close to my heart. M Nasir's or Ebiet G Ade rock my socks as well. The reason why I put this song was when I reflected myself about TC last week. That particular moment, I switched on the radio and sat down for breakfast. Then, the DJ played this song. What a coincidence, eh? I never reflected well on the lyrics before this. But since that day, I found the beauty behind the lyrics.

I don't want to be sad nor be afraid. Yet, as humans you tend to feel it. You don't know what the future holds for you. But everyone feels that way don't they? If we know our future, and know our luck, perhaps everybody might be so proper and the world will be different than what it is. I have my own weaknesses and I am trying a lot to improve on those. Be it taking risks and fall here and there, I have to face the music. By the way, I felt really glad that some sahabats are patient with my weaknesses in certain skills which I lacked. Depending on them forever is a bane for me. So I'ved decided to strive hard for this goal and be consistent with it. Like what my lecturer said recently, it is better to do something little, a step at a time but consistent rather than doing something huge but you get tired in the end. There is a hadith which says about this too. And since I was given the privilege for the skills and the amanah, I must be responsible. To myself, and to the ummah who needs it.

And what the lecturer said made me reaffirm certain decisions and choices which I have to make in life. Everyday, I feel a certain jitter. Uneasiness is something you don't ask for. A jitter which I hope is a positive sign from Him. I just have to keep believing...