Ya Qalb...
Here we go for the special month!
GET READY!Dragons' team had a recharging session after a long break. Although there was minute attendance, it was still a good refresher session for us. The descending wall differed from the previous one because of the shelters albeit it being just a 3-storey floor. I did some hillarious 360 degree stunt while dragging myself down. Lucky this time round, no video-taking! In the first place, I thought it was easier than the 5-storey building I had back in Aljunied. But I had difficulty climbing over. Maybe due to the slanting shelter.
Then, prussick just to remember the coordination. Soon after it ended, showers of blessings from the rain. Hopefully, I will be able to do a good job for the sharing session before the actual event on the 30th. So what's HOT coming this fasting month?

Come this fasting month, Saff Perdaus is organising the event above to coincide with the Ramadhan Youth Challenge 2006. Highlights include sports climbing and abseiling . So...
Are you between 13 and 22 years of age?
Brave enough to take up a challenge?
If so... Take up our challenge!!
More info here
And me, I gotta prepare myself before I belay them on the 30th, 
The family gathering
Oh well, yours truly's paternal side too has a birthday which falls on the same day as mine. Happy b'lated birthday, kak Erlis. In fact, both paternal and maternal side has a cousin each sharing the same birthdate as me. Weehoo =)



Thank you all - for the food&drinks, the venue and of course, the comfort. <3
Self Development
Sir Winston Churchill once said,
'Success is the ability to go from failure to failure without losing your enthusiasm.'
Success, which I almost lost if it hadn't be for the motivation by abah to continue after failing twice. I remembered back then, an online conversation when I discussed with a sahabat about failure breeds success. This, is one of the simplest examples. Alhamdulillah, I have received my plate of orange and yellow pie stuck with me for a year. One of the goals which I have been waiting and now, the gain. My best advanced birthday gift so far.
So smile, when the video's on you. The knowledge for the intensive video production workshop held at Substation & MOE was undescribable. It seemed impossible to create a storyboard and direct a short film, but the experience was a roller coaster ride. Not only does yours truly learnt to video edit in depth, but produce and direct films. Hoping to utilise this knowledge in the education line which was the initial reason as well as for outreach purposes, insyaaAllah. Thanx Li.oneL C.h.ok for the intensive and productive but super tiring 2-days ride.
Ralph Parlette quoted,
Real birthdays are not annual affairs. Real birthdays are the days when we have a new birth.
How true. A new birth, a new step towards betterment in life. To be under the umbrella of His blessings and approaching the gates of life's ending. Thank you to the people I love, my best buddies, my good friends and virtual ones for your well-wishes and du'a. A special touch for it's the day of Nisfu Sha'ban as well... :)
A Chinese proverb states,
The journey is the reward.
Excruciating it may seem, but the journey as an undergrad at the same time enlightens the pain when satisfaction is achieved. If you really work smart and try your best, insyaAllah good returns will come. You can't turn back the time when you took campus life for granted. Doubling roles and taking a longer journey can make you stronger or even wiser. Alas, last sem's results: 3 A- and 1 B (G.P.A : 3.5) Much tougher for the following sem, I can only try to do the best I could. I might not do better than last sem but I believe, all these are phases of life to test your beliefs, your Eeman and your strength on the journey of the truth.
And this path of self development will never end. That's the beauty of life.
In the path of our happiness shall we find the learning for which we have chosen this lifetime.~ Richard Bach (Illusions)
And I am learning, for the future garden that awaits the entrance of carers to bloom it well. Thank you Allah for this ni'mah. Aameen.
* Gems of Knowledge *
Be It Yourself Day - ACES Day - Teachers' Day
My role : Videographer / Photographer
Dolling up as : Martial Artist
Then said a teacher, "Speak to us of Teaching."
And he said:
No man can reveal to you aught but that which already lies half asleep in the dawning of our knowledge.
The teacher who walks in the shadow of the temple, among his followers, gives not of his wisdom but rather of his faith and his lovingness.
If he is indeed wise he does not bid you enter the house of wisdom, but rather leads you to the threshold of your own mind.
The astronomer may speak to you of his understanding of space, but he cannot give you his understanding.
The musician may sing to you of the rhythm which is in all space, but he cannot give you the ear which arrests the rhythm nor the voice that echoes it.
And he who is versed in the science of numbers can tell of the regions of weight and measure, but he cannot conduct you thither.
For the vision of one man lends not its wings to another man.
And even as each one of you stands alone in God's knowledge, so must each one of you be alone in his knowledge of God and in his understanding of the earth.
Selamat Hari Guru!
The prezzies are all left in the staffroom. Too heavy to bring home. Till school reopens!(F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU
Chill, Its Sunday!
| How to make a Nur Khairiah |
| Ingredients: 3 parts competetiveness 3 parts humour 3 parts ego |
| Method: Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Top it off with a sprinkle of caring and enjoy! |
Are You A Solo Blogger Or A Network Blogger? : A Blogging Analysis Quiz
You're a trailblazing blogger! You can definitely blog solo. But, with your background and financial capital, you might even want to consider starting your own blogging network.
If I Were a Blog Component,
I would be the MAIN BODY ENTRY.
I love living life - and blogging - to the fullest!
*Quiz no. 4*
| You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish |
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*Quiz no. 4*
Your Dominant Thinking Style: |
| Visioning You are very insightful and tend to make decisions based on your insights. You focus on how things should be - even if you haven't worked out the details. An idealist, thinking of the future helps you guide your path. You tend to give others long-term direction and momentum. |
Your Secondary Thinking Style: |
| Experimenting You're all about looking at the facts, and you could always use more of them. You see life as your lab - and you're always trying out new things, people, and ideas. The master of mix and match, you're always coming up with unique combinations. You are good at getting a group to reach consensus. |
That's all folks. Have a break, have a nap!
H.a.d.z~
Apparently, I am much sensitive to Malay songs. I'm a jiwang-jiwang punya oranglah... So my ears were more sensitive when I was listening to his diction and tones... In addition, a jazz is not easy... Sheila's songs are made specially for her voice quality. And dia dapat bawa lagunya dengan teramatlah emosi. Most prolly of one's own m.o.t.h.e.r tongue language. Miss Púrpura's 60 cents... WiDz's 60 cents x 6 for 2 days... haha. I guess, it's a stress therapy for me. Felt good doing that... And glad its all worthwhile to see him coming back once again. Smitten? Oh yeah I am, sesungguhnya. With the looks which are in the listed looks of my kind (the c.h.i.n.e.s.e looking essence) , he surely rock the stage! Not forgetting the maintain cool. Only tensed during the results. All the best Hadz!!!~
I've been a tad of big eater lately... It's nearly entering the 2nd month of such habit. Been eating big portions of food be it a course meal, or just a simple meal. Well, it's so unlike me. Is there something wrong with me? Existence of subconscious stress perhaps? Is there such a thing? And it's been two days of stomach problem. The machine in the stomach is losing its function, heh. I think I am having diarrheoa? I'll see how it is tomorrow...
I totally forgot to check out my book review interview on RSI (R-a-d-i-o S'-p-o-r-e I'-t-e-r-n-a-t-i-o-n-a-l) podcast yesterday. I have to wait for its repeat telecast tomorrow afternoon and listen to my not-so-well-done review (i think) because I wasn't that well prepared since I am currently into working commitments too much to settle.
So, my dear friends, if you have any good books you've read (Malay or English), you can simply inform me by tag/ sms / msn okay?
x x x
I wish for a winter sonata story of my own...
Super Duper Beach Affair!!!
With the end of the inter-madrasah sports event, (which I admit I didn’t train the girls much due to work and study commitments) it didn’t mark the end of the bond between the super juniors/seniors and us, the super seniors.
2. Yummy food which made us constantly sat at the food/drinks section to eat fried rice, munch satays, dig in chickens and orange syrup!
3. The hippest beach volleyball game where us, the oh so unfortunate super seniors had to become baits for them. As human nets!
4. Nearby restrooms to cleanse and purify ourselves.
7. My team won both rounds of bowling! (Heh, although I played quite bad for both games, failing to meet my normal scores for the usual first 2 rounds which I always do as warm up). Losing team bought us ice cream! Yummie!
8. There are vehicles to bring us home albeit ‘y’ having to return to uni that same night.
10. Because I definitely love my pre-u2000 girls!
Apresiasi Bahasa dan Akoo
Mungkin juga aku akan meletakkan tugasan-tugasanku di sini sebagai perkongsian...
Alhamdulillah, lelaman 5 Jauhariku dapat dilestarikan. Akan kujadikan pengalaman ini sebagai medan perjuanganku hingga titisan darah terakhir (hehe). Moga-moga dengan usaha ini, anak didikku dapat mengembangkan potensi mereka dan memperbaiki mutu kerja dalam kehidupan seharian.
Penggal 3 akan berakhir tidak lama lagi. Aku harap prestasi kerjaku juga dapat meningkat, insyaAllah... Semoga Allah membantuku dalam mehnah yang tidak pernah mudah...
.. She prowls ..
Her favourite class got their taste of medicine due to half-way efforts. All these while, they have been fed with sweets. Too much sweets, can rot your teeth. So, they are almost at the rotting stage. Prevention is better than cure. Had a short shock-bitter medicine before dismissal of class. They better buck up on their working attitude, else the tigeress might show her claws once again; which is seldom seen in this close rapport of gems she has.
Oh well, knowledge aren't for her gems alone. She has a long road for her path of knowledge. This long road includes the long, thick pages she has to read before her battle with the pen and papers starts tomorrow afternoon. The long, thick pages which to her, are excruciatingly painful in her brain. Hoping to be given the Nur and compassion by Him to help her understand easily. Please let the ink flow gently tomorrow. She needs it very very much. And she hopes that her friends who read this pray for her...
And she also prays for her cousin's well-being on her special day after her own brother's special day last few days...

Grow beautiful my child,
Either Ukhrawi,
Or Duniawi...
Listen to your parents my child,
You'll seek happiness,
It's all worthwhile...
Hopefully,
you'll be among the Qur'anic generation,
The young caliphs...
Nurfatin Syukrina...
I love you my dearest cousin...
When the orchid blooms...
A bouquet of love,
For the comfort at work;
For the strife of knowledge;
To make me feel the worth;
To have a flower;
for the laughter;
for the tear
A friend,
a feeling of the heart...
***
Thank you for making my working life fruitful. Thanks for making me a mugging buddy too.
It has make a difference since the first year I came in. I'm much more stable now... ;)
***
Mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sudah lepaskanlah semua
Dendam yang meragut sukmamu
Janganlah kau cuba menghadiahkan
Kebinasaan dan gejolak yang mencengkam jiwa
Sudah lepaskanlah semua
Impian dulu yang sudah lusuh
Omong kosong yang dusta
Hanya impian kau fikir kan capai
Hari ini ku lihat kau di depanku
Hari esok tiada ketemu lagi
Hanya mereka yang berfikir
Yang ada hanya insan yang lemah
Tidak kira kulit, bangsa mahupun agama
Fikirkan ke mana arah kita
Ini bumi Tuhan, bumi Dia yang Esa...
Rintihanku.. hanya mampu melafaz
Tak terdaya melangkah...
Inilah hati yang tergerak sejenak membaca blog Zul tentang serangan yang melanda. Orang kata, 'picture speaks a thousand words?'. Hanya titik air mata yang terpaksa ditahan...
Red & White
The shocking one is my mid-term exam for the one particular module I had difficulty understanding. D-Day, this Saturday. Due to the hectic yet learning working experience, I just realised when a coursemate smsed asking the pages of readings to be done. So I have 2 and a half days to catch up with my readings for mid-term and assignments as well as editing the test paper for my kids. Seems that I've found another study partner. Prolly mugging at my old study hangout, oh those moments.
School's NDP show today was great. In the sense that there was a flow in the skit they did. And it's always exciting to see them role-playing the characters stated in Sg's history. Later, managed to burn some fats (I hope so) during the captain's ball game we had versus our ex-students. But gained much more during a farewell lunch for a colleague. I actually ate a lot. I had a full course meal (fish 'n' chips, barley soup, coke) + free a single scoop ice cream + A full ice cream + free flow cold water.
And today's a good day for my closest cousin in town! Yeap, closest in age, exact in birthdate and best rapport during our yesteryears. Woohoo... Happy 23rd birthday Muhd Nur Azhari!
You may not have been updating your own blog. But I really hope you read this.
(Note, his sis/bro pls tell him, heh)
I really want you to excel in your career path right now in the aircraft line. May Allah make things easier for you in achieving your goals and aspirations. Ameen! Make us family proud especially your cuzz here, aite... ;)
x x x
Needing a longer time
To think it over
To istikharah
Again...
Going through a testing phase...
Semakin Sirna
Pabila mentari menyinarkan kasihnya kepada makhluk Tuhan, pabila hujan menangis bersama mengiringi perjalanan insan… aku masih di sini mencari haluan yang sebenar untuk kuteruskan...
Terkadang aku terlupa dengan hati yang sebenar… umpama ombak membelah pantai tanpa menghiraukan mangsa. Kucuba hadir pada makrifah dan menolak segala gejolak di jiwa. Lantas kau, dia, mereka menjelma lalu meninggalkan kesan dengan calitan warna berirama mengusik kalbu...
Sinar... pancaranmu biarlah menembusi cahaya yang sirna. Aku butuh kepastian yang utuh. Aku ingin berdiri kembali, berpacak di kemuncak pasti. Tegarkan hatiku, agar keyakinan ini kembali terpateri...
Art Attack
Mug. mugging. mugged. [Yok bual pasar]
« Kali ni Sains Hadith ngan Qur'an kena hafazan. Dua-dua jadi tugasan. Belum mula dengan Hadith, dah mula dengan Qur'an.
« Kuiz/Ujian Sains hadith minggu lalu, aduhai, cheem! Ada yang mudah, ada juga yang tricky. 'Ala kulli haal, aku tawakkal 'alallaah. Cuma dah lama tak berperasaan susah nak jawab semasa kuiz. Minggu tu pula, memang kerja aku macam sarang tebuan. Langsung tiada masa untuk ulangkaji sebab masa balik aku dipenuhi dengan tugasan kerjaaaaaaa. Aku cuma baca lepas Subuh pada hari kuiz yang hendak diambil. Lebihan lagi, muka surat yang perlu aku baca, banyak pulak tu... lagipun, maddah ni memang banyak terms yang perlu ingat. Walaupun dah pernah touch masa zaman sekolah dulu-dulu, yang ni lagi in depth ah... Aku tak konfiden dapat markah bagus untuk kuiz ni!
« Hal kaji-mengkaji ni pula... aduh... kaji tu untuk buat tugasan biasa tu memang boleh diatur. Tapi kalau dah ikut method-method ni seme... Hampeh! Cuma pensyarah dia ada skit kereta api lah. Walaupun dia nak kita discover processes sambil buat kajian, readings untuk faham definisi tu je aku dah pening. Baru selesai buat literature review.
« Adik sedara aku tu tengah struggle nak jadi future engineer. Hari tu, aku sempat bantu dia dengan projek Material Technology. Hidup biar susah dahulu, belajar mendaki dengan keringat sendiri, nanti satu hari akan ke puncak juga. Macam aku, belum sepenuhnya ke puncak yang aku sangat impikan. Maju terus, hingga berjaya, yea!
« Jam menandakan tarikh yang baru. Masa untuk membuat soalan peperiksaan akhir tahun. Buat kerja mesti ada air. Malam-malam gini aku suka buat air panas, macam waktu kat kampus dulu masa belajar. Tiap malam air panas. Sebab bilik aku sejuk. Aku memang minah teh tanpa milk. Sejak dari kecil lagi. Tak berubah-ubah, huhuh. Kopi ke Nescafe ke, bagi aku kurang tendang.
« Kawan-kawan aku yang tengah backpack tu, semoga selamat pulang ke tanah air, iye?
Salam rindu...
Feel challenged
This week has been the most hectic in term 3. Where all activities either clash and participating them at the same time. Most of the time I had to reach work as early as 715am and log out by 7pm the latest as the lights and aircon would dim signalling your supposed departure back home. The rest I could only get without even touching a book to mark would be around 30mins the most. That also, to take time for personal touch with the Almighty. Well basically this happened since it is our MT week in lieu of the B.u.l.a.n. B.a.h.a.s.a. With Friday ending, it marks the end of the MT week. The reason of this rushing hour is because of the task me and my colleague were given as organisers of an activity for the higher primary. We called it ‘Kembara Minda’, a similar A.m.a.z.i.n.g Race game; at the vacinity of our school. Alhamdulillaah it was a success. Since this batch is the first trial, I hope my colleagues will be able to give constructive feedbacks (which I hope will be a good one) to further improve the game.
Well, during the initial stage, my h.e.a.d wanted us to do that by utilising the PDA, like the one in S.u.r.i.a ( Z.o.o.m Thailand). However, they said that it’s not feasible. Well… belum cuba belum tahu kan? However, not a sound reason to me. I’d like to check the functions of the tool one day if I’m given a chance. Perhaps, I could do something about it to fuse with my ML lessons.
I am unsure whether I’m in an alarming state. With the rat-race working environment, I barely touch my books. What worries me, the books kept piling. I even had to put aside the thought of cleaning my table until I manage to clear off the piles. At home, I have to prepare the activity for the next day. I confess that some exciting things I’ve planned for my pupils have not been done and had to postpone because of the level of priorities I had to do first.
Much worse, I have not been able to set aside time to do on IIUM’s research project. Proposal to be presented tomorrow and I have not even started reading my literature on the topic. And Sunday, I heard there’s a test. Starting to feel the pinch! Ouch!!!
There are just a lot of things going through my mind this particular week. My experienced colleagues agreed that this year, especially this term is the worse they ever had in the workplace. Next week is submission on the final year paper for vetting. I am starting to like my work. But what’s liking without challenges? The challenge has already been felt.
Tomorrow's a next challenge too. Out of home straight after Subuh and back home after Isya'. Oh do I need a break...
x x x
The strings of faith is trying to pull me down
I could feel the force of strings to make me lie low
I seek your help my Dear Creator
Not suppose to feel such way
Show me the light
Wisdom not to go astray
NE Show 2006

To those who knew, last Saturday was the NE Show @ N.a.t.i.o.n.a.l S.t.a.d.i.u.m. for the g.a.h.m.e.n schools. So, by default, I was supposed to put that willingness in me to join the crowd as I am one of the ML p5 tee-cheers. I was quite reluctant in the first place as I never bother to be excited in attending such big hoo-haa events. Not saying that I am not a law abiding c-t-zen. Just that, I didn't fancy crowds that much. Since the event would mark the closure of the stadium, I thought that being there as a first timer and the last was quite an interesting thought.
We started all the way from noon. I had to help sorting the goodie bags and circulate them. This time, it's a sling bag. I was assigned as a buddy to my colleague. We went there by a chartered S.B.S bus after a short talk by the headmaster.
Being in N.S reminded me of my Big Walk years with my pre-u2000 clan. The last time was back in my higher secondary years? *I think* It hasn't change of course. The only difference were the number of spectators and a different set. I found the sound detector quite cool. The crowd were divided into 2 and we had the kallang wave challenge. Then, the detector will rank the sound waves created.
But only one thing that made me flabbergasted; the fireworks. Be it indoors or outdoors, I would certainly wait for the fireworks. It left me in awe! Infact, I captured loads of videos on fireworks alone. Hehe, I finished up all my 3 memory cards.
That particular day left me many memorable moments...
- I met some of my ex-NIE-Townsvillian friends
- Made better rapport with the P5 pupils. Now they know my name...
- Discover more of my colleagues - their humour, their jokes
- Met my practicum colleague as well as my practicum students
To add to this, of course... we went off midnight time! Believe it or not! Lucky it was Sunday. When we return to school, the entrance was shining brightly and parents eagerly waiting for their children in school. To me, most importantly is the safety of the students. Alhamdulillaah, they went back safely. I am also very sure they enjoyed themselves after having to wait for 31/2 hours after the end of the show just to get out of that gigantic place. It was a fruitful wait for me because of some things that happen along the way...


Puh-pearls nad Tea-Cheers

Met my practicum students. The few ones who actually made quite an impact during my practicum days. They are already P5! I taught them when they were P3! 2 years?!
Sunset @ Stadium

Love their antics and intro to a fun and enjoying game I learnt that day!
A rubber flower girl at night
Corat-coret malam
Hari ini aku mengimbas kembali seakan masa-masa bermulanya aku di sini. Bezanya, aku sudah setahun lebih berpengalaman. Peristiwa pahit dan manis telah ku lalui. Aku dapat rasakan aku ada sedikit kemajuan berbanding masa lalu kerana pengalaman dan kesibukan setiap hari membuatku mempelajari sesuatu setiap masa. Aku berharap aku semakin yakin untuk maju ke hadapan walaupun aku tahu, tohmahan yang tidak mungkin enak di gegendang telinga kadangkala akan wujud pada bila-bila masa. Aku juga sudah belajar tentang talam dua muka. Aku hanya berdoa aku tidak tergolong dalam manusia sebegitu.
Kini, aku diberi kepercayaan berada di hadapan. Setiap hari, mula dan pulang. Itukah salah satu potensi yang ada dalam diri? Aku masih belum mendapat kepastian. Cuma nampaknya anak didik yang tidak ku kenali sudah mula menyapa diri ini. Itu tidak bermakna aku sudah menjadi seseorang. Jauh lagi perjalanan.
Rak-rak buku dari satu menjadi dua. Meja kerjaku juga bertimbun dengan buku. Satu hari jumlah buku menipis, hari itu juga jumlahnya meningkat. Satu hari nampak hampir kosong, hari itu juga penuh tiada tempat. Hari-hari akan datang juga pada minggu hadapan, terpaksa bekerja lebih kuat, 12 jam sehari. Maklumlah, perlu tiba ke sekolah jam 7.25 pagi. Aku bersyukur sekolahku dekat. Satu hari di tempat kerja, duduk di meja paling lama 1 jam sahaja. Lainnya? Ke hulur, ke hilir...
~ Setelah sebulan dengan sandal sukan tanpa stoking, akhirnya, hari ini kembali mencuba kasut dan stoking. Parutku terasa gatal sedikit dan kakiku melecet pula.
~ Bulan rezeki, kerana bonus yang masuk ke dalam akaun. Tiada niat untuk berbelanja pada bulan ini lantas bonus disalurkan pada akaun simpanan setelah 3 bulan tiada fulus untuk disimpan. Mentelah lagi, aku bukan kaki belanja. Perbelanjaanku selalunya pada buku-buku, alat tulis, keperluan komputer atau jika ada rezeki lebih, barang sukan. Alhamdulillaah.
~ Keinginanku selepas musyarawarah tadi untuk pulang dengan teksi terpaksa ku tahan. Semata-mata untuk menyimpan wang. Lebihan lagi, aku berpeluang untuk menyemak karangan murid aku di kereta api. Hanya berjaya menyemak 7 dari 38 karangan yang ada.
~ Esok sejurus selepas Subuh, keluarlah diri ini ke dunia luar dan pulang hingga larut malam gara-gara ke NS. Lusa pula, menyahut medan ilmu pada awal pagi dan kuiz pertama untuk modul itu yang hanya dapat ku baca tadi sewaktu perjalanan ke musyawarah setelah waktu kerja.
~ Malam ini, aku terkesima. Kerana pandangan manusia, kerana terimbas hidup yang lama. Namun demikian, hanya satu yang amat ku terasa di lubuk yang paling dalam yang aku harap Allah dapat membantuku.
X X X
intelektualku bukan setinggi mana...
intelektualku bukan seperti rakan-rakan lainku...
yang lebih pintar, lebih cerdik hingga berjaya ke menara gading...
aku masih lagi perlu usaha untuk ke sana...
suatu hari nanti...
malam ini sungguh syahdu...
Tuhan, berikanku kekuatan...