(F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU

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F A M I L Y
I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
"Oh excuse me please" was my reply
He said, "Please excuse me too;
I wasn't watching for you."
We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said goodbye.
But at home a different story is told,
How we treat our loved ones, young and old.
Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
My son stood beside me very still.
When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
"Move out of the way," I said with a frown.
He walked away, his little heart broken.
I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.
While I lay awake in bed,
God's still small voice came to me and said,
"While dealing with a stranger,
common courtesy you use,
but the family you love,
you seem to abuse.
Go and look on the kitchen floor,
You'll find some flowers there by the door.
Those are the flowers he brought for you.
He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.
He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,
you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes."
By this time, I felt very small,
And now my tears began to fall.
I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
"Wake up, little one, wake up," I said.
"Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
He smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree.
I picked 'em because they're pretty like you.
I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."
I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today;
I shouldn't have yelled at you that way."
He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay.I love you anyway."
I said, "Son, I love you too,
and I do like the flowers, especially the blue."
FAMILY
Are you aware that if we died tomorrow,
the company
that we are working for could easily replace us in
a matter of days.
But the family we left behind will feel the loss
for the rest of their lives.
And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more
into work than into our own family,
an unwise investment indeed,don't you think?
So what is behind the story?
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A few days ago, one member of a dear family friend, the mum, passed away in Down Under. I've always had these jitters everytime when the phone rings during weird hours. It was Subuh time around 6+ in the morning. Mum was obviously shocked hearing the news as the latter is one of her very close friends.
I am close to the first two of her sons during my childhood years, but keeps in touch longer with the second one out of the 5 children she had. Now, without the care of parents, the eldest son which is my age carries a huge responsibility. The dad has passed away, a few years ago.
Now, if I were to travel there, I won't be fulfilling my objective to meet the mum anymore. I guess, it's not my rezqi to be able to be there when my parents had the chance to spend their time in Melbourne without me.
I have been reflecting, what would I do, if this happens to me. For a son who has younger siblings to take care of, the bond may be stronger. As for me who would be left alone, it is just unimaginable.
So this poem forwarded by a dear colleague triggered me to write about the fateful incident. But the mum passed away in her sleep. May Allah bless the sons and only daughter who are still young but strong beings of the ever challenging life. I can already see the maturity in them albeit the hardships they went through all this while. And reminiscing on my childhood days with them, I surely miss them all very much :o/

Chill, Its Sunday!

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It's a nice day. Had good pol.Science lecture early morning. Today I shall relax the whole afternoon to pamper myself and rest. Let's chill awhile and look at the fun quizzes I took today.. Shalalalala....


*Quiz No. 1 *

How to make a Nur Khairiah
Ingredients:
3 parts competetiveness

3 parts humour
3 parts ego
Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Top it off with a sprinkle of caring and enjoy!
*Quiz no. 2*

Are You A Solo Blogger Or A Network Blogger? : A Blogging Analysis Quiz
RESULTS ANALYSIS
You're a trailblazing blogger! You can definitely blog solo. But, with your background and financial capital, you might even want to consider starting your own blogging network.
*Quiz no. 3*

Blog Component Quiz

If I Were a Blog Component,
I would be the MAIN BODY ENTRY.
I love living life - and blogging - to the fullest!

*Quiz no. 4*

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish


You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.


*Quiz no. 4*

Your Dominant Thinking Style:

Visioning

You are very insightful and tend to make decisions based on your insights.
You focus on how things should be - even if you haven't worked out the details.

An idealist, thinking of the future helps you guide your path.
You tend to give others long-term direction and momentum.

Your Secondary Thinking Style:

Experimenting

You're all about looking at the facts, and you could always use more of them.
You see life as your lab - and you're always trying out new things, people, and ideas.

The master of mix and match, you're always coming up with unique combinations.
You are good at getting a group to reach consensus.


That's all folks. Have a break, have a nap!

H.a.d.z~

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I thought I wouldn't want to blog about it. Yet, after reading Miss Púrpura's entry, had the itch to write about it. Sharing the same sentiments as her, last few night's performance was a blast. Basically, I have been watching since the top 12 and he wasn't that prominent although I know he has one of the good vocals but today, his performance totally blew me off! Haha, maybe the tinglings she mentioned were the same kind of tingle bug I had...

Apparently, I am much sensitive to Malay songs. I'm a jiwang-jiwang punya oranglah... So my ears were more sensitive when I was listening to his diction and tones... In addition, a jazz is not easy... Sheila's songs are made specially for her voice quality. And dia dapat bawa lagunya dengan teramatlah emosi. Most prolly of one's own m.o.t.h.e.r tongue language. Miss Púrpura's 60 cents... WiDz's 60 cents x 6 for 2 days... haha. I guess, it's a stress therapy for me. Felt good doing that... And glad its all worthwhile to see him coming back once again. Smitten? Oh yeah I am, sesungguhnya. With the looks which are in the listed looks of my kind (the c.h.i.n.e.s.e looking essence) , he surely rock the stage! Not forgetting the maintain cool. Only tensed during the results. All the best Hadz!!!~

I've been a tad of big eater lately... It's nearly entering the 2nd month of such habit. Been eating big portions of food be it a course meal, or just a simple meal. Well, it's so unlike me. Is there something wrong with me? Existence of subconscious stress perhaps? Is there such a thing? And it's been two days of stomach problem. The machine in the stomach is losing its function, heh. I think I am having diarrheoa? I'll see how it is tomorrow...

I totally forgot to check out my book review interview on RSI (R-a-d-i-o S'-p-o-r-e I'-t-e-r-n-a-t-i-o-n-a-l) podcast yesterday. I have to wait for its repeat telecast tomorrow afternoon and listen to my not-so-well-done review (i think) because I wasn't that well prepared since I am currently into working commitments too much to settle.

So, my dear friends, if you have any good books you've read (Malay or English), you can simply inform me by tag/ sms / msn okay?

x x x

I wish for a winter sonata story of my own...

Super Duper Beach Affair!!!

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Fun, faith and friends last weekend @ ECP!
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With the end of the inter-madrasah sports event, (which I admit I didn’t train the girls much due to work and study commitments) it didn’t mark the end of the bond between the super juniors/seniors and us, the super seniors.
Why should I be happy? 10 facts I love about it…
1. An overwhelming response from the pax we invited as a bonding session with them.
2. Yummy food which made us constantly sat at the food/drinks section to eat fried rice, munch satays, dig in chickens and orange syrup!
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3. The hippest beach volleyball game where us, the oh so unfortunate super seniors had to become baits for them. As human nets!
4. Nearby restrooms to cleanse and purify ourselves.

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5. Played soccer! We’ve always loved soccer since our yesteryears…
6. Advanced birthday liquid bash for our August girl, ‘A.z.m.a! (Sorry girl, we wet your clothes!)

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7. My team won both rounds of bowling! (Heh, although I played quite bad for both games, failing to meet my normal scores for the usual first 2 rounds which I always do as warm up). Losing team bought us ice cream! Yummie!
8. There are vehicles to bring us home albeit ‘y’ having to return to uni that same night.

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9. The company of my fellow pre-u2000 clan. Their stories, their antics, all!
10. Because I definitely love my pre-u2000 girls!
It’s this particular event and responsibility given to us that rekindled our friendship once more. I hope, our young girls will be able to appreciate this kind of friendship rarely found. Till we meet again for the next sports event in 2008, if given the chance. Many things can happen along the way. We might be or unable to train thre rest of the batch in the future. Heartfelt thanks to my sweeties who covered my role of a netball trainer. At least, we clinched medals after all. Kudos to the ones who won!
p.s. Sanah Helwa Ya 'A.z.m.a!!! May Allah bless your special twentyfour today with umbrella of blessings and may this friendship last till the last of our breath! Lurve you lots sizta!!! ;)

Apresiasi Bahasa dan Akoo

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Memandangkan ku tidak mahu blog peraduan yang ku sertai dibiarkan berabuk, aku akan menggunakan lelaman itu sebagai wahana pandanganku tentang sastera, bahasa dan budaya kaum Melayu. Aku bercadang untuk meletakkan alamat lelaman itu sebagai sebahagian dari senarai jalin maya.

Mungkin juga aku akan meletakkan tugasan-tugasanku di sini sebagai perkongsian...

Alhamdulillah, lelaman 5 Jauhariku dapat dilestarikan. Akan kujadikan pengalaman ini sebagai medan perjuanganku hingga titisan darah terakhir (hehe). Moga-moga dengan usaha ini, anak didikku dapat mengembangkan potensi mereka dan memperbaiki mutu kerja dalam kehidupan seharian.

Penggal 3 akan berakhir tidak lama lagi. Aku harap prestasi kerjaku juga dapat meningkat, insyaAllah... Semoga Allah membantuku dalam mehnah yang tidak pernah mudah...

.. She prowls ..

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Her day was not an eternal bliss. She didn't mind rushing on her own without involving others. Yet, she deters others who love to initiate things on their own without consulting her, when she did that hardwork albeit the mayhem she went through. That was particularly the reason she began to slow her pace due to under recognition of efforts. Hardwork doesn't pay off totally in life. Hopefully, in the Hereafter.

Her favourite class got their taste of medicine due to half-way efforts. All these while, they have been fed with sweets. Too much sweets, can rot your teeth. So, they are almost at the rotting stage. Prevention is better than cure. Had a short shock-bitter medicine before dismissal of class. They better buck up on their working attitude, else the tigeress might show her claws once again; which is seldom seen in this close rapport of gems she has.

Oh well, knowledge aren't for her gems alone. She has a long road for her path of knowledge. This long road includes the long, thick pages she has to read before her battle with the pen and papers starts tomorrow afternoon. The long, thick pages which to her, are excruciatingly painful in her brain. Hoping to be given the Nur and compassion by Him to help her understand easily. Please let the ink flow gently tomorrow. She needs it very very much. And she hopes that her friends who read this pray for her...

And she also prays for her cousin's well-being on her special day after her own brother's special day last few days...



Grow beautiful my child,
Either Ukhrawi,
Or Duniawi...

Listen to your parents my child,
You'll seek happiness,
It's all worthwhile...

Hopefully,
you'll be among the Qur'anic generation,
The young caliphs...

Nurfatin Syukrina...
I love you my dearest cousin...

When the orchid blooms...

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A friend,
a sanctuary;
a smile;
a hand...
A new found friendship,
Out of the boundaries;
Of merely colleagues;
One you can rely on...
A bridge of ukhuwwah,
of two Muslim sisters;
Hope to stay strong;
In the tide of tough times...
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A bouquet of love,
For the comfort at work;
For the strife of knowledge;
To make me feel the worth;
To have a flower;
for the laughter;
for the tear

A friend,
a feeling of the heart...

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Thank you for making my working life fruitful. Thanks for making me a mugging buddy too.
It has make a difference since the first year I came in. I'm much more stable now... ;)

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Mungkin yang terakhir kalinya

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Monolog kepada saudara-saudaraku di T.i.m.u.r Tengah

Sudah lepaskanlah semua
Dendam yang meragut sukmamu
Janganlah kau cuba menghadiahkan
Kebinasaan dan gejolak yang mencengkam jiwa

Sudah lepaskanlah semua
Impian dulu yang sudah lusuh
Omong kosong yang dusta
Hanya impian kau fikir kan capai

Hari ini ku lihat kau di depanku
Hari esok tiada ketemu lagi
Hanya mereka yang berfikir
Yang ada hanya insan yang lemah
Tidak kira kulit, bangsa mahupun agama

Fikirkan ke mana arah kita
Ini bumi Tuhan, bumi Dia yang Esa...
Rintihanku.. hanya mampu melafaz
Tak terdaya melangkah...

Inilah hati yang tergerak sejenak membaca blog Zul tentang serangan yang melanda. Orang kata, 'picture speaks a thousand words?'. Hanya titik air mata yang terpaksa ditahan...

Red & White

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A long holiday for a good cause and a shocking realisation. Reason being, there is an assignment to be completed for one of my modules. Consulted my lecturer on the two chosen topics and he replied to me to focus on the one entitled 'Orientalists criticism of Wahy and Muslims Responses'.

The shocking one is my mid-term exam for the one particular module I had difficulty understanding. D-Day, this Saturday. Due to the hectic yet learning working experience, I just realised when a coursemate smsed asking the pages of readings to be done. So I have 2 and a half days to catch up with my readings for mid-term and assignments as well as editing the test paper for my kids. Seems that I've found another study partner. Prolly mugging at my old study hangout, oh those moments.

School's NDP show today was great. In the sense that there was a flow in the skit they did. And it's always exciting to see them role-playing the characters stated in Sg's history. Later, managed to burn some fats (I hope so) during the captain's ball game we had versus our ex-students. But gained much more during a farewell lunch for a colleague. I actually ate a lot. I had a full course meal (fish 'n' chips, barley soup, coke) + free a single scoop ice cream + A full ice cream + free flow cold water.

And today's a good day for my closest cousin in town! Yeap, closest in age, exact in birthdate and best rapport during our yesteryears. Woohoo... Happy 23rd birthday Muhd Nur Azhari!

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You may not have been updating your own blog. But I really hope you read this.
(Note, his sis/bro pls tell him, heh)
I really want you to excel in your career path right now in the aircraft line. May Allah make things easier for you in achieving your goals and aspirations. Ameen! Make us family proud especially your cuzz here, aite... ;)

x x x

Needing a longer time
To think it over
To istikharah
Again...

Going through a testing phase...



Semakin Sirna

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Adakah masa ini mencemburui diriku? Saat aku terpaku mencari jalan yang kering menunggu hujan, mencari mentari, mencari sesuatu yang mampu membuatku melangkah terus ke hadapan dengan kepastian. Sedangkan waktu masih mencemburui diriku…

Pabila mentari menyinarkan kasihnya kepada makhluk Tuhan, pabila hujan menangis bersama mengiringi perjalanan insan… aku masih di sini mencari haluan yang sebenar untuk kuteruskan...

Terkadang aku terlupa dengan hati yang sebenar… umpama ombak membelah pantai tanpa menghiraukan mangsa. Kucuba hadir pada makrifah dan menolak segala gejolak di jiwa. Lantas kau, dia, mereka menjelma lalu meninggalkan kesan dengan calitan warna berirama mengusik kalbu...

Sinar... pancaranmu biarlah menembusi cahaya yang sirna. Aku butuh kepastian yang utuh. Aku ingin berdiri kembali, berpacak di kemuncak pasti. Tegarkan hatiku, agar keyakinan ini kembali terpateri...