I want to share my story...

Two really really tough struggles of the day. Struggles of the mind which flows to the exhaustion of the entire jasad. So I skipped qiyam although I wanted to go, but Aula of today's class was really at its peak.

One unique trait of today's paper is the technique used by Dr. And he loves to use that technique with other IIUM students as well. A mental exercise to fit in a limited space even before answering the question. So how would you answer a question given only a limited space to write? Hmm, that's why I told you, critical yet creative. The assessment of this exam was based on 4Cs - comprehensiveness, conciseness, clarity and convincing.

A first encounter of an open-book exam, like other of my friends who commented on the concept of open-book, ain't easy. And given 2 hours 10 mins to complete this in a limited written space, spent 1 hours making a stand on the topic. In fact, I only started to write 40mins before the time ended. Just to fulfill the 4Cs was a brain cramp. Spent 30 minutes on the 1st part and only 10 mins on the 2nd part. More excruciating was the fact that Dr. assessed directly in class whilst continuing on our individual presentation.

That was my 2nd struggle of the day. Dr. wanted today to be the sisters' moments. Actually I really felt like fainting. Firstly, I ate late breakfast. And the adrenaline rush of touching the exact same topic with the topic of the exam is nerve racking. I kept telling humaira I wanted to go back home. I was really having a headache. Was whining the way through and contemplating on my limitations and confidence. But dear humaira mended the broken wing, haha. Actually it wasn't the presentation but the challenge of being challenged with thought provoking questions especially from the ikhwan. (They love asking critical superduper questions that requires some thought processes before answering). And it wasn't an easy topic for me: 'Liberalism'. How will I answer their questions? Convincing enough ke? Atau memalukan je...

And I just discovered today, the trademark of my presentation style and the way I portrayed myself made them guessed the line I'm in. Akhirnya, the ustaz have stopped thinking both widz and humaira as current students. Haha, nampaknya tak boleh nak elak dah ni. Yang penting, struggles really bear the fruits of ni'mah.

Jiayo! At the end of the day, the two scatterbrains known as widz and humaira fruited A- again for the exam... Alhamdulillaah...
*Tak sia-sia beb, muggin' nak crazy walau tertidur terbangun macam nak hapa ye di abode masing-masing*

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Akhirnya, diri ini sudah dapat mencapai tahap perasaan yang diinginkan kembali. Semakin baik, semoga tandanya juga baik... Syukran Ya Allah...