95% true?

Get to know yourself better
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Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. ( not too serious of course, scares me! ) You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. (huh? nah!) The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with? (oi, of course i'm serious lah)

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. ( guess i'm in one)

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working. (balance of both)

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. ( more of quiet to cover. only when u cabut the wrong wire, then it'll explode. your luck )

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

. . .

Innalillaahi Wa Inna Ilahi Raji'un to a very close family friend.
May Allah reward and bless you dunia akhirah. Aameen.

No words

He said: You only have abah and emak. Other than that, family on my side and mak's side. That is why you have to be a good one and be strong.

Aku hanya diam.
Aku tunduk sayu.

Syukran sangat kerana tidak jenuh dengan tadzkirahmu.
Jika dulu tidak terasa pentingnya.
Semakin dewasa, semakin faham erti nasihatmu.
Hanya Allah yang layak membalas semuanya.

Terbayang masa depan...

Bagaimana nantinya.
Lalu...
Titik titik jernih dari kelopak mata membuka sejuta harapan
Tiada yang pasti...

Impian...

"Setiap impian yang kita miliki akan terus menjadi impian jika tidak diiringi dengan usaha dan semangat yang kental."

Manusia memang banyak impian mereka. Terpulanglah kepada individu untuk merealisasikan impian itu. Impian yang utama pada diri kamu, tidak semestinya keutamaan pada individu yang lain.

Kalau dipahat di awang-awangan sahaja tanpa usaha dan cara, kamu akan tetap membina istana impian sahaja. Kadangkala, impian itu sama dengan rakan sebaya, tetapi destinasinya berbeza.

Kadangkala, penglihatan kita kabur memilih. Akibat menurut fikrah kawan, kita tidak jelas dengan apa yang kita inginkan. Sedangkan menjadi seperti kerbau dicucuk hidung sahaja tidak sesuai dengan cara hidup kita.

Cuba menjadi seseorang yang berpendirian teguh apabila membuat keputusan hidup. Sisipkan 'ibadah yang bermanfaat untuk memutuskan jalan yang ingini.

Kita perlu mengorak langkah yang utuh untuk capai impian itu. Bila sudah usaha, pupuk semangat yang kental kerana mungkin jambatan menujunya amat sulit. Jalan itu pula perlulah sentiasa dengan bimbingan yang Esa agar tidak sesat ditelan masa.

Bak skrip dari 'Cik Siti Intan Kembang':

Tanpa keberanian, mimpi tidak menjadi nyata

Apa lagi? Beranikan diri kamu walaupun perit dijengah mehnah.

Bersusah-susah dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian.

Hamba yang kerdil,
Widz
Kawasan Timur, Singapura

Terima dan hadapi

Referens: blog bradermacho

KESILAPAN dan KESALAHAN akan membuat kita tak tentu arah! Penyesalan menyerang perasaan, ditambah oleh pelbagai saranan-saranan keliru yang merosak sekali gus boleh membuat seseorang berhenti setelah melakukan kesalahan. Kesimpulan mudah untuk mengatasi hal ini ialah berubah.

Bagaimana caranya?


*Akui jika memang bersalah

Ini akan membebaskan mental kita. Mangakui kesalahan akan lebih membuat kita lega dan mampu melihat permasalahan dengan lebih jelas berbanding kita merungut, menyalahkan orang lain, atau menyalahkan keadaan.

*Hadapi kesalahan
Kesalahan adalah fitrah, suatu yang lumrah terjadi kepada semua manusia. Oleh itu, kita tidak mungkin menghindarinya. Semakin menghindari semakin terseksa! Hadapilah dan carilah penyelesaiannya. Dengan melarikan diri hanya membuat kita semakin menderita!

*Fleksibel dengan informasi baru

Merubah fikiran bukan satu kesalahan andai ia demi kebaikan atau malah lebih baik. Maka jika kita melakukan kesalahan, tidak ada salahnya untuk mengubah fikiran. Jika ada informasi baru yang lebih baik, mengapa harus ditolak?

*Terimalah perubahan

Informasi baru boleh mengubah fikiran dan perasaan kita terhadap tindakan kita pada masa lalu. Jika ini terjadi terimalah perubahan itu. Perubahan fikiran dan perasaan akan mengubah hasil yang akan dicapai.


Tidak ada orang yang sempurna, terimalah kesilapan. Dengan menerimanyalah kita mampu melakukan perbaikan. Bagaimana kita dapat melakukan perubahan jika kita tidak merasa bersalah?

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Tadzkirah yang amat tepat pada waktu yang amat diperlukan.
Si Fulanah fixing the messed pieces and taking out the heavy stone in the heart...
Recharging needed badly...

wanna know?

Modern, Cool Nerd 52 % Nerd, 52% Geek, 30% Dork

For The Record: A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia. A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one. A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions. You scored better than half in Nerd and Geek, earning you the title of: Modern, Cool Nerd. Nerds didn't use to be cool, but in the 90's that all changed. It used to be that, if you were a computer expert, you had to wear plaid or a pocket protector or suspenders or something that announced to the world that you couldn't quite fit in. Not anymore. Now, the intelligent and geeky have eked out for themselves a modicum of respect at the very least, and "geek is chic." The Modern, Cool Nerd is intelligent, knowledgable and always the person to call in a crisis (needing computer advice/an arcane bit of trivia knowledge). They are the one you want as your lifeline in Who Wants to Be a Millionaire (or the one up there, winning the million bucks)! Congratulations! THE NERD? GEEK? OR DORK? TEST

Selamat selamat...

Usia setahun diharap akan meningkatkan ketaqwaan dan kematangan fikiran. Semoga cita-cita yang membara di jiwa, kelak direalisasikan dengan penuh ketekunan dan kejayaan.

Terima kasih atas persahabatan, dan pengenalan dengan orang-orang yang disayang, terutama dengan adik kesayangan yang comel. Terima kasih juga atas teh tanpa henti! Semoga ukhuwaah yang terjalin berkekalan hingga ke syurga. Atlubu ilallaah li sa'adatik fiddunya wal aakhirah...

To save de world?

Your Superhero Profile

Your Superhero Name is The Fighting Wasp Your Superpower is Cybernetics Your Weakness is Balloons Your Weapon is Your Water Blowgun Your Mode of Transportation is Bullet Train

What's" your Superhero Name?

Fighting wasp: Oh yes, I need to avoid the killer biters and suckers, no? Currently experiencing reddiness of the skin (sob sob).

Cybernetics: Eh, sounds cool eh. Can I change it to Cyberwidz, puhlease? hehee...

Balloons: But I love poking balloons you see... so, it can't be...

Water Blowgun: Err, did that in Sarawak with pellets, not water... So how does this look like then? Blowpipe with water as weapons? Hmmm...

Bullet train: I'm just a typical MRT passenger.

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To my pre-u2000 clan, esp. Ainul, do not forget to upload the pics okay awak.
Thanks for visiting my humble abode dearies...

teringat lah...

Had some exchange of thoughts with a sahabah on certain changes and additions of a particular one we regard a family; a family of the community. It wasn't quite a hot debate between us, but we managed to see the rationale of why certain things were planned in such a way. In the first place, he was complacent of the reason on why things were done like that. Alhamdulillah after letting him see on a different perspective, he managed to agree. It's always 'the only constant thing is change' factor.

During this time that I remembered the HROH event held last year on Nov 30th. I guess it was one of the most memorable events while I was in office. That was the point of time where I mastered the various ketupat styles in a day! (Thus, the existence of Kak Yaya's factory, haha). Apart from that, challenged with some MS friends with gasing spinning. And the fact that it was published in the news on Suria and the Nanyang Chronicle, which I managed to stumble upon it while surfing earlier.

A prompt gotong royong day from our side and indeed, a joyous occassion.
*Me and Rachmat in pic* with Dr Su and family learning the art of weaving ketupats.

Fun all in the name of harmony
Educating the NTU community amidst joyous celebrations at the Hari Raya Open House
Lin Yanqin

IF YOU responded to an email invitation from the NTU President Su Guaning to attend the Hari Raya Open House on November 30, you would have found yourself enjoying a morning of good food, fine performances, and interesting games.

“The objective was simple – to educate the NTU community,” said Assistant Professor Abdul Wahab Bin Abdul Rahman, who helped oversee the event.

“We hope to correct some misconceptions. For example, many think that Hari Raya celebrates the Muslim New Year, but it actually celebrates the end of fasting,” he added.

Mr Mohammad Hafiz Mustaffa, 22, a second-year student from the School of Mechanical and Production Engineering (MPE), highlighted: “The purpose is to celebrate and to explain. Hari Raya can be celebrated by all, not only Muslims.”

Mr Mohammad Hafiz is also the President of the NTU Muslim Society (NTUMS).

This certainly seemed to be the case for the mix of local and international students in attendance.

“I am having a lot of fun,” Wang Yi, 26, a post-graduate Computer Engineering student from China said.

“I never knew much about Hari Raya, and now I know more,” Wang added.

“I saw the email and was curious,” said second-year MPE student Lim Zhong Min, 22.

“I think it’s good to see more interaction between the races.”

The Hari Raya Open House is the second time Dr Su Guaning has extended invitations to all at NTU. The first occasion was the Chinese New Year Open House.

“This is an expression of our cultural identity, and I felt that it was a waste not to share it at a broader level,” explained Dr Su of his suggestion to open the celebrations to all levels of NTU.

In the past, the events were organised mainly for the international students studying at NTU by the International Student Centre.

Guests enjoyed a rousing multi-lingual performance by the Malay Language and Cultural Society. Exhibits on Hari Raya and its origins and customs were set up all around, and a variety of Malay dishes and snacks were served.

Guests could also dress up in traditional Malay costumes, and play Malay games and instruments.

After the success of the two open house celebrations, Dr Su hopes to see more of such events.

“It is a strength to have so many unique cultures, and being able to express our identity.“It adds to a more vibrant campus. It would be good to see them initiated by students.”“One of our hopes is to push up the concept of harmony,” said Prof Abdul Wahab.

“I hope it’s something we can look to every year, with a different flavour.”

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Titipkan kesabaran yang lebih dari kesabaran yang wujud sekarang.
Jauhkan diriku dari api kemarahan yang menikam.
Bantulah diri kami agar usaha kami tercapai walaupun mungkin aku antara segelintir yang hadapi badai ini sejak dari awal dan terasa cengkamannya yang amat menduga...

Ketika Hati Menangis

Ku lungsuri lelaman zul, terbaca satu puisi yang menusuk ke kalbu...
Tusuk ke dalam sebab kisah benar...
Walaupun boleh diinterpretasikan dalam pelbagai peristiwa hidup...
Ku rasa ni secocok dengan cerita silam...
Terima kasih zul, widz ambil ye...

Tuhanku,

ketika hati sedang menangis

hanya Engkau saja yang tahu

betapa merananya diriku tak mungkin yang lain tahu...

Tuhanku,

ketika mereka meninggalkan aku

sendiri terkapai-kapai

ketika dunia tiada simpati

kau tetap mendengar rintihanku

padaMu tempatku menagih kasih

ketenangan kurasa mendekatiMu

syahdu malam tak terasa sunyi...

Tuhanku,

ketika aku dalam kepayahan

keseorangan dihimpit beban derita

Kau beri aku kesabaran

pengalaman mengajar erti kematangan

lantas kau membuka pintu hatiku

untuk memberi kemaafan pada mereka yan pernah melukakanku..

pada mereka yang terus melukakanku...

dan pada mereka yang tersedar kerana melukakan..

Tuhanku,

ketika aku buntu

keliru dengan masa depanku

kau berikan aku kekuatan

Kau tunjukkan aku jalan

peluang kedua yang sungguh bermakna

sebagai penyuluh hidupku

menebus usia yang sia-sia

mengganti semalam yang pergi

memperbaiki kelemahan diri

mempelajari pengajaran dari kesilapan

menimbus kekecewaan dan dendam

Moga tiada lagi aku

bercita-cita lemas di laut

atau terlanjur menelan berlebihan pil

sungguh pelik bunyinya tetapi benar

hanya kau saja yang mengerti

hatiku terseksa sekian lama

kini akhirnya bangkit semula melupakan episod terakhir

dan menyambut lembaran baru...

Tuhanku Yang Maha Pengasih

rahmatMu tak terkira

syukurku melangit pun tak tercapai

sungguh aku rasa berdosa kerana dulu sering terlalai

semoga penyesalanku kau terima...

Masih Ramai Yang Tidak Mengejar Ilmu

I would like to share what I've read in BH, in case some of you overlooked or maybe didn't have the time to read it yesterday.

"Ramai yang tahu ayat pertama Al-Quran yang diturunkan adalah berkaitan dengan membaca dan mengejar ilmu. Namun sayang kenapa orang Melayu, sebagai Muslim, masih ramai yang tidak menjadi masyarakat yang mengejar ilmu. Kenapa bangsa dan masyarakat lain, yang tidak punya al-Quran, begitu dominan dalam bidang ilmu termasuk sains dan teknologi?"

True indeed. It's an irony at times when I think about it. It's tougher when you think about individuals proclaiming themselves as Muslims, yet aren't practising Muslims. I've been in a few modes of circles of friends, the past and the present. And I certainly went through a total overhaul of friendship when things changed for the better. Praise be to Allah that I found and blessed with circles of friends who put knowledge at a high stake for their future. Most importantly, the stake that they put are solely for the attainment of pleasure from the Almighty. That adds a tingle of sweetness in the friendships made. Vital to me. Friends as reminders to guide you on the track of Islam, Eeman and Ihsan.

Apart from the knowledge mentioned above, I'd like to add on the aspect of language. Haji Suratman mentioned on about the deterioration of communication in Malay. Unfortunately, in certain organisations, popular in the island.

"Akhirnya kita perlu bertanya diri sendiri, jika kita orang Melayu tidak menggunakan bahsa Melayu, siapa lagi yang akan menggunakannya? Dan jika akhirnya bahasa Melayu kita tidak digunakan lagi, siapa yang hendak dipersalahkan?"

Unfortunately for some of us, ain't any better in English either. A lost-lost situation. I'd prefer if we excel on both languages and apply it to fit the situations we're in. And not to concentrate only on a language while putting away the other. Moreover, there aren't any much culture of writing in own's language. It's lacking and I think we need to produce more writers who excel in all areas.. A holistic one that is...

Blessings in disguise

Clicked an email from a dear brother who have been on a hiatus for awhile, to a group of us...

.."Sayidina Umar did a lot wrongs before Islam came to him. He buried his baby alive and many more evil deeds. When he embraced Islam, he didn't sit down and cry over his sins, but stood up and fought for Islam. People may know him for his dark past, but he has shown that his efforts and contribution for Islam surpassed his past. Take him as an example and you can do wonders, maybe more than him."

Partly the answer, or perhaps a guide by the Almighty for me to see the light.
His niat might arrow to a slightly different perspective, but it applies to what yours truly have been experiencing recently while muhasabah alone during Ramadhan. If he had not sent the message, i might not realise the root of the musykilah that has been hiding at the back of the head, thus the weird feelings and happenings.

Haiz, reflections, reflections. Sometimes, reflections of the past really haunt you down...But, the message quoted, really enlightened and spirited my inner self to do more for my deen. Thinking back, I should not worry as the sahabat will accept me for who I am presently and not the past. Syukran...Thank you Allah, Alhamdulillaah.

Be happy and let's end with some Syawal snaps...




After reading some emails and bloghopped, I felt this heavy lump in the heart. I truly miss the 18thClan and hope to see them soon...

Nak fuluus, jemputlah ke rumah kita!

Half day of school. 9 absentees!
Experiences with fasting month albeit the puasa 'yok-yok' and rantings of stomachaches. For some, they sure did well for the whole month of Ramadhan, my P1s.
I apologised to them, throughout this journey so far. They may just be lil angels, but as educators, sometimes, anger overpowers patience, all for goodness sake.

For the sweet 'Eid videoclip, thank you...
For all I care, cikgu loves all of you.

Fresh page

A very close relative who studied in Syria has been de imam for Tarawih this year near my block.
Wa'alaikumussalaam to him.
A young and soft spoken guy indeed.
I miss our tuition days during secondary school days doing Arabic & Islamic studies lessons with de sis too.
Days we kena pinched by ustazah because of our childish whinings.
We've grown. He's already a husband albeit a year younger than me. His sis an undergrad, and me? Education still,nothing new. Heh.

How's last Tarawih?
Did you achieve your goals?

p.s. Refreshed my site. Apologies to avid readers who commented on my hiatus, hihi.