Fragility

That fact is still hard to swallow.
I just wish that things are much easier.
But it's not easy at all.
I still feel this heavy lump in my heart.
And I just couldn't cast it away.
I feel it everytime when time fills me alone.

Perhaps it's the best for me at this moment.
Maybe He wants me to be more prepared.
Hopefully this makes me much better.
And gain more confidence and peace.
Whether I can gain that, only He knows.
Such a faint heart.
Dissapointed with thyself.

So many targets and goals.
That we reach some.
Or we falter.

Guess,
I have to appreciate those I've gained
And strive harder for the ones I've lost...