Ramadhan oh Ramadhan

Ramadhan, kau datang lagi membawa makna yang mendalam dalam hidupku...

Alhamdulillah! Ramadhan's here again and I'm so grateful to be able to meet this month. Of late, with regards to deaths of Muslim celebrities and also my arwah Nek Long... marked the end of them meeting Ramadhan this year. It also marks a new Ramadhan for me as a new mother to my infant.

I had been thinking, would I be able to handle Ramadhan this year? Being a full b-feeding mum, I wasn't sure how I would take it. Most of my 'free time' at work has been booked for this personal mission of mine such that I lack in completing my admin work (markings, etc). It was such a breeze earlier this year when I wanted to clear those tasks before the relief teacher comes in. I could settle marking those books/worksheets/etc. after class and after my working time. Nowadays, it is such a challenge and my stuffs keep piling and I had to chase time instead.

I even had to find space for lunch and usually I'd multi-task doing work and lunch at the same time. One thing for sure, since Ramadhan has come, there's no need to buy lunch. But just a matter of whether I can handle myself and not suffer dehydration due to the pumpings and energy sucked up from me by pupils.(hah)

This leads to one important point. I'd treasure Ramadhan and hope that I'll be able to complete one whole month since my period has not come.

So on the 1st day of Ramadhan....

-Woke up at 4.30 to cook pasta @ own home.
- Iman was fast asleep without any distraction.
- Around 5.15 woke hubb sahur.
- 6 plus wanted to perform my Subh prayers and Qur'an recitation. (I was hoping at this juncture to complete the whole mashaf since I thought with the complete fast given to me)

And Allah knows best because it has come... This is a perfect way to say 'Kita yang merancang, Allah yang tentukan...'